TART The Sequel (TART 4)

Winning Giveaways and Throwing Up :)

The title is wild lol

I have a bit to write about so I'll start with Friday! XD

I skipped school and took a mental health day lolol

I mentioned earlier that I wasn't doing so well so I took it easy on Friday >w> I'm not really ever missing out on anything at school anyway because we never do anything, and anything they do there I can easily do from home 🤷‍♀️

So yeah, I worked on my Copic drawing of Venti because I haven't been able to work on it at all this week :/ First of all I have absolutely no motivation to draw when I'm not doing so well, and second of all I'm filming the coloring process and I need sunlight to be able to do that and the sun is setting already when I come home from school at 3 p.m... I really can't wait until the art studio is finished :')

Speaking of: the materials and furniture for the art studio came on Friday! So on Tuesday the carpenter will be coming over and starting on the room, and he's promised that it'll be finished before next Monday so it's finished before the electrician comes out! :D I'm so excited! >w<

Other than draw and play Genshin Impact, I also baked on Friday! I'm in the Christmas mood already lol so I baked gingerbread cupcakes :D And then yesterday I baked some cookies that I baked several times last Christmas and my dad and I love them! XD

This day hasn't gone as well though... lol

I got my period yesterday, and the second day is always the worst for me... T_T I woke up at 8:30 to my uterus trying to kill itself, and I was too scared to get up because I thought the cramps would only get worse, so I just laid in bed and hoped I would fall back asleep and wake up without cramps

It only got worse and I was just bleeding too much so I ended up getting up :')

By then I had such awful cramps, I could barely walk T_T I immediately took some painkillers and curled up in a ball on the sofa and waited and hoped for the pills to work, but I only got worse 😭😭

My skin was basically boiling, it was cold in the living room but I felt like I was dying of a heatstroke, I got super lightheaded and thought I was gonna faint, and then I got so unbelievably nauseous

I might've thrown up a little bit (=ﾟωﾟ)ﾉ I was halfway forcing it lol, I was so nauseous and I just wanted to vomit and be finished with it so I just kept coughing until it happened lol but my stomach was basically empty so it's not like a lot came up EVEN THOUGH NOBODY WANTS TO HEAR ABOUT THIS, IM SORRY 😂

I was hurting so bad I just went back to my bedroom and curled up in a ball and tried to watch youtube videos to take my mind off of the pain but dear god

I've only had cramps this bad one other time in my life and I pray to god it never happens again 😭😭😭

I FELT POISONED, I THOUGHT I WAS DYING 😭😭😭😭😭

I kept turning and moving to try to stop focusing on the pain and I just kept clutching my blankets the way girls squeeze their boyfriend's hand while giving birth lol

IT FELT LIKE MY ORGANS WERE EXPLODING INSIDE ME AGAIN AND AGAIN

I'm still a little traumatized from this T_T

After 2 or 3 hours, I could finally bring myself to get out of bed :') I was still super nauseous so eating was difficult and I still had cramps for a while but at least I could move again lol

TO ALL THE GUYS READING THIS: YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW FUCKING LUCKY YOU ARE FOR NEVER HAVING TO GO THROUGH THIS 😭😭😭

At least I felt a little better after playing some Animal Crossing and Overwatch ;-; I managed to take a shower and by then I felt a lot better, thank god

I feel really guilty though because my mom was supposed to celebrate her birthday today and invite my aunts over, but she ended up canceling because I was in such bad shape this morning T_T Luckily she hadn't baked the cake yet >_<

So yeah, after the shower I felt up to drawing a bit :'> I actually used my pencils for once lol, I'm drawing a silent princess from "Breath of the Wild" :D (it's a flower :3)

I just had to take it easy today so I didn't get to work on my Copic drawing, I haven't done the voiceover yet and I still have a lot of editing to do so I'm just gonna have to upload the youtube video a day late, but I need to keep telling myself that my health comes first! XD

So yeah, I drew for a few hours today and played a few games and watched Monsters Inc with my family, I'm just so grateful that my uterus isn't fucking killing me anymore 🥲 (I love this new emoji lmao)

I may or may not have cried to Monsters Inc today (=ﾟωﾟ)ﾉ I nearly cried when Sully had to leave Boo, and I did cry at the end when Sully opens the door and you hear "Kitty...?" and he just smiles 🥺🥺🥺

I also noticed something today!!! I don't know why I never took notice to this before, but when Mike shows Sully Boo's door and says something like "sorry it took so long pal, it was a lot of pieces of wood", he shows his hands and they're all cut and scratched 🥺🥺

Monsters Inc reminds me of when I was really young and I was afraid of monsters XD My dad used to read me bedtime stories and stuff before I went to bed back when we lived in Delaware, and every time I told him I was afraid of monsters, he'd tell me that there's nothing to worry about because monsters' fur tastes like steak so Rio (our old dog) would eat them for me XD

Oh yeah, last thing! I think the universe felt sorry for me this morning lmao, because I won a giveaway on instagram!! :D

Do you guys remember the artist I really like who was streaming on twitch, and my name popped up since I followed her and she said something like "ohh yunofangirl! I remember you from instagram!"? :DD

Aldhslxjal I can't believe it!! ;-;

I got to pick out 4 Genshin Impact charms!

They're all so beautiful 🥰🥰

I chose Kaeya, Diluc and Venti since I love them, and then I chose Razor because he's Hannah's favorite and I thought it could be a Christmas present for her! :3

It hurt to tell her that I won but could only pick out 3 charms, and Razor wasn't one of them :'(

But yeah, otherwise all I have to say is that I finished season 2 of Haikyuu and I nearly cried, not because it was sad, but because it was just so powerful and I'm so attached :'>

Also, my favorite character got an episode dedicated to him and he got so much character development in that one episode and I wanted to cry because I was just so happy 😭😭

So yeah, I'm on season 3 now! :3

I hope you guys have a great day/night! 😷