^ me being dramatic lmao
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I had a math test on Monday and the questions looked a little familiar, and since we were allowed to bring our books for the test, I looked through mine and realized that it was the exact same questions that we had on a practice sheet a few weeks ago so I just wrote the same thing lol
I also had an English test yesterday and I think it went pretty well XD I finished first and we were allowed to leave school when we were finished (since it was the end of the day) so I started packing up to leave
I could feel my face go red because it was dead silent and I was trying to get my stuff and leave, and then my teacher literally walked over to me, felt my jacket and said something like "you know it's -30°c outside, right?" and I just aldjaldlsod
I was already drawing attention to myself, why did he have to come over and make it worse?? 😭😂
And yes, it's fucking freezing over here and my stupid school STILL WON'T TURN THE HEATERS ON
IVE BEEN ANGRY ABOUT THIS FOR NEARLY FIVE YEARS ALREADY ALISALSJAKS THIS IS CHILD ABUSE
When I got up today, the first thing my dad said to me was "welcome to the coldest day since we've moved here" :(
It was -34°c when I woke up, and it was probably even colder before I got up :(
This past month has been absolutely brutal, most days stay below -20°c and we've been having this extremely cold streak and I hate it, my body wasn't built for this and my immune system can't take it T_T
I had a weird sensation in my head this morning :P I don't really know how to explain it but it was like vibrating?? It felt like a truck was turning on in my brain
It was just fuzzy and buzzing and even my hearing wasn't quite clear, idk what that was about XD
But yeah, a combination of my head, the bitter cold and my crippling anxiety kept my home today :) It's just been a lot at school lately and we have this stupid project that's making my anxiety skyrocket so it's just been difficult lately :')
I can't remember the last time I've had anxiety like this T_T I've been on the verge of a panic attack all week long so it's just kinda stuck inside my chest, gnawing away at my health :') I've been having a ton of headaches and concentrating has been really difficult, plus I've been really nauseous because of the anxiety and I feel really emotionally fragile lol
So that's probably why my head was all weird this morning lol. I'm also gonna stay home tomorrow because I'm really only a step away from a huge panic attack and I need to get myself under control again lmao
I've already spoken with my teacher about the project so hopefully that's one less thing to be anxious about >_< I just wish I didn't have to feel so unbelievably guilty every time I'm home from school :')
Anywho lol
A new event started in Genshin Impact yesterday with a new character that the whole community has been looking forward to (Xiao)
It was torture being at school knowing that a new event had started, and every time I went on instagram, my feed was filled with nothing but Xiao drawings and I was longing to play :')
I've been playing a ton of Genshin Impact with my sister lately XD I've also been working on some Genshin Impact drawings, so that's been keeping me sane lol
So yeah, I've really just been spending my time drawing and playing Genshin Impact to sooth my overly anxious soul XD
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