I ended up taking a nap 😂 Sleeping away my worries 👌
There's not really anything I can do about it, so there's no point in thinking about it but it still bothers me. I'm just wondering how many people out there actually believe Mal and think that I'm some awful person who just abandons my friends
What angers me the most is that I can't defend myself. I can't do anything, I just need to stand here and take the punches and I can't express how incredibly infuriating it is
It's been 8-9 months since we stopped talking, I can't believe she's been dragging it on for this long and still can't fucking let it go and move on - that's all my friends and I want to do. We don't want any more drama. We never wanted drama in the first place, I never wanted us to start hating each other's guts, I wanted us to drift apart peacefully but she's the one who makes a big fucking deal out of everything and uses it to gain attention and sympathy from others
I'm just gonna keep telling myself that she's only doing this because she sees how well T, Amalie and I are doing together and with our new, better friends. She's just jealous because she chose the selfish, shallow people over people who supported her since day one, and now she's ended up all alone, and we warned her that was gonna happen
My sister actually still has Mal on sc so I took a photo of the messages so at least I have proof XD At least all my friends know that she's lying, and most people with common sense know that she's full of shit, I just hope there isn't too many people believing it ^^;
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My friends and I went for ice cream after school yesterday :D
Again, at some point I said something in a lighter voice and they immediately said "that's your drunk voice!" and continued to make fun of me and say everything I said when I was drunk, but in a lighter voice :< They're never gonna let me forget about this, are they? XDD
Speaking of alcohol, we had chicken alfredo for dinner yesterday and my parents always have a glass a wine with it
So both Hannah and I got our own glass with a little bit of wine to try
I took a little sip and was like "ewww it tastes like pee" while me sister drank the whole glass (not that there was a lot in there but still XD)
I have my dad's alcohol tolerance while my sister has my mom's, apparently 😂
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I've read soo much IT today XD
I think I've mentioned this before but R has read the book and there was something this character named Patrick had done that had freaked her out so bad, and she told me I was close to that part (if you know what it is, please don't tell me >_<)
I was at a very exciting part today so I ended up reading somewhere between 50-100 pages, and my eyes and head was starting to hurt so I decided that was enough for today
But I wanted to see how close I was to the Patrick part, so I flipped through a few pages
I'm pretty sure the super disturbing and awful Patrick part is in the next chapter, so in about 4-6 pages maybe? I saw his name pop up, and all I read was Beverly reminiscing about how creepy he was and how he would touch all the girls in class when he sat next to them
WHY DO I GET THE FEELING THAT HE'S GONNA RAPE BEVERLY-
I know that's a very extreme thought but it's Stephen King we're talking about here >_> I've only read a little about Patrick, and I can already tell that he's extremely creepy and the characters described him as more psychotic than Henry Bowers - and that's really hard to beat
And then I read the part about Beverly talking about how he would touch the girls, it all clicked in my mind XD
All the guys seem to have a strange fascination with Beverly anyway so I won't even be surprised
PLEASE STEPHEN KING, I DON'T WANNA READ A RAPE SCENE, ESPECIALLY NOT IN YOUR DISTURBINGLY REALISTIC AND TWISTED STYLE 😭😭😭
You wanna know what makes it worse?
If Beverly really does get raped by Patrick, it happens when she's 11-12 years old
...I REALLY DO NOT WANT TO READ THAT
Ok last thing lol
We made homemade sushi today! :D I just wish the thing with Mal hadn't happened today, because food wasn't very appealing after I heard about it and I still feel sick to my stomach because of it :'> Hopefully some sleep will help
I'm gonna end this with a meme that makes me really happy, and that hopefully makes you guys happy too XD <3
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