TART The Sequel (TART 4)

Me Scaring Myself :)

I should really stop reading IT at night XD

It doesn't necessarily scare me, it's just unsettling to be reading about children being mutilated and torn apart-

It's more disturbing and fucked up rather than scary but that's why I like it so much XD

I'm on page 600-and-40-something lol

I would've liked to finish it sooner but my first priority is finishing Persona 5, I wanna finish it before I move out!! ;w;

I've played over 70 hours of P5 lmaooo I think I still have quite a bit left too since I have one more palace left XD

I also started watching Durarara again!! I really wanted to watch the other seasons (I've only seen the first season), so I watched a recap of season 1 on youtube but that only made me so much more confused since I remember nothing lmao so I'm re-watching it instead

I haven't watched anything new in forever, I've just been keeping up with season 2 of Re:Zero XD

I finally finished my Persona 5 drawing though!! After 100+ layers and 10+ hours XD

I think it would be really cool to draw each of the phantom thieves in that style but knowing me, I'll probably never get around to it XD I want to though!!

[OMFG

I was reading through this chapter before publishing it and I swear to god I heard what sounded like nails tapping against something either from inside my room or from right outside and it scared the living daylight out of me

So I sat up and turned on all the lights in my room because I'm a wuss who has read way too much Stephen King, and it was probably just my mind playing tricks on me, but I swear I could've heard movement coming from outside my room

So I just quickly got up and locked my door lmfao

MY HEART IS BEATING SO FAST 😭

But then I started to think, what if instead of locking something out, I locked something in?

Yes, I'm a 17 year old who just checked under my bed :)

The only other place someone could be hiding is inside my closet but I've propped something in front of it lol

All night I've been thinking that I'm hearing things outside my window!! The fact that Mal legit drove up here and crept around my house in the middle of the night still scares the fuck out of me and I think about it every time I hear anything outside my window!! TwT (even though I know of 3 cats that live in the area and there's a lot of wildlife so it's most likely just an animal, if not just the wind or something lol)

I need to stop scaring myself 😭😭 I'm listening to music right now to stop myself from imagining all the noises I could be hearing XD

I just realized that I probably heard Baby or something outside my door lmfao

This is what Stephen King novels and a wild imagination does to you :)]

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Anywho lol

Amalie is finally back in town for a while so T, R and I met up at her house today! 🥰

It was really nice to see them again ╰(*'︶'*)╯♡

I brought popcorn because I felt bad for being that one person who never brings any snacks hehe (and I was craving popcorn :>), and Amalie had bought a crap ton of candy for all of us to nibble on (scarf down) while we just spoke :D

We started talking about sushi at some point and we decided to go see if they were selling any sushi in any of the stores (there's actually good store sushi here according to R and Amalie XD), but they were all out everywhere so we ended up buying fresh spring rolls instead~ =w=

I ate so much more than I should've today lmaooo my stomach feels like it's about to explode XD

We talked about a few things that actually made me pretty happy today! :D We talked about how after R and Amalie graduate (while T and I will be in our last year of high school since we're both restarting in new classes lol), we should take a trip together out of the country!! :D I'll be over 18 then so I'll have my first payment of my blood money anyway lol, so I could actually afford it XD

We mentioned the whole blood money thing (since both T and Amalie know about what happened), so R obviously got really confused so we had to tell her about Earl Brian Bradley, which was fine because I trust her, but it was a little awful because it suddenly felt like a pity party for me XD

I tried to say as little as possible about it because I didn't want it to become a pity party lmao, but I probably should've told her that I'm only getting blood money because the possibility that something happened to me is there, not because it's guaranteed that anything happened, I hope she's not thinking that really awful things have happened to me XD

I'm always scared that people won't believe me when I say that he was my pediatrician, it's such an insane story, it's something you only ever really hear about on the news or in stories (not that many people know about it XD I've written about it here a few times to get it off my chest but otherwise I don't like mentioning it, and I don't want people I'm not close with knowing about it =3=)

I hope they didn't notice me shaking though OwO I tried my best to hide it, which was also why I said as little as possible, but if they saw that I was shaking then they'd probably think that I have deep trauma or something related to him and that's not the case lmao

Anywho lol, I mentioned at some point that I was worried that I was gonna stop getting invited to things and that my friends would forget about me once I move away, but T and R immediately said "what?!" and reassured me that that wasn't gonna happen (though I know that's very easy to say now :'>). Then they said that they could take trips to the city and meet me there and we could hangout together and that made me really happy ;w;

Though I know that we're obviously gonna grow apart anyway because of the distance, but I hope that we won't cut ties completely and that I can still meet them on weekends and stuff ;w;

It almost hurt a little to talk about us taking trips and stuff together, because I care about them so much but things are gonna change once I move away, I just hope that things won't change too much and we can still be friends and hang out T_T

Ok that got a little depressing lol I'm sorry :>

Here, have this screenshot of my crazy luck in Mystic Messenger :)