It's 6 a.m. and I'm awake because I had such an awful nightmare T_T
I dreamt that my mom told me that before I even knew about Earl Brian Bradley, I had told her about some scary guy who would say this disturbing phrase to me (I've forgotten it now but just know that it shook me to my core in my dream)
(Also, if you weren't around during the time I found out and wrote about this or you don't remember, Earl Brian Bradley is the worst pedophile in US history and he also happened to be my pediatrician when I was a child, which is why we moved to Norway lol)
I went to sleep that night (still in my dream lol) and woke up abruptly by feeling someone behind me choking me, and then I heard that phrase
I just remember the pure terror I felt at that moment, I couldn't breathe and I couldn't move and I knew he was trying to kill me, and then he said that one phrase that chilled me to the bone and I knew exactly who he was
I woke up (in the dream lol) and I've never been so frantic and hysterical, in real life or in a dream. I immediately started screaming and breaking down and it felt so real, I was seriously confused when I actually woke up because I thought the part where I woke up and broke down was real
So yeah, I might be a little too scared to go back to sleep now XD Im so frustrated that I can't remember the phrase, just know that it was seriously the most disturbing thing I've ever heard and you most definitely don't want to hear it from someone who is choking you and trying to kill you :)
I don't know why I dreamt about him, I don't think I've ever actually dreamt about him before and I haven't thought about him in a LONG time, now I'm sad that those thoughts are back in my head and disrupting my sleep =3=
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GUYS I CAN'T BREATHE ALSHNALJQS
I WAS GOING THROUGH SOME MESSAGES I GOT WHILE I WAS ASLEEP TO KINDA CALM MYSELF DOWN
DO YOU GUYS REMEMBER THE GUY I TALKED ABOUT AROUND THE BEGINNING OF MARCH WHO I WAS CRUSHING ON???
HE LEGIT WROTE TO ME THAT HE HAS THE HOUSE FOR HIMSELF FOR A FEW DAYS AND I CAN COME OVER AND WATCH A MOVIE OR SOMETHING WITH HIM LJSNAOWJD
WAS I JUST ASKED OUT ON A DATE-
I DONT KNOW WHY IM BOTH SHAKING AND LAUGHING AND TERRIFIED-
WHAT THE FUCK DO I SAY 😂😂
I like how I went from past trauma to boy drama in the same chapter lol, I just went through a lot of emotions in these last 10 minutes I've been awake XDD
Ok I'm gonna try to go back to sleep even though I probably won't be able to now XD
