^ that was a bit of a weird combo lol
I had another awful nightmare two nights ago T_T
I explained a tiny bit to my mom but she wouldn't let me tell her any more because she was on the verge of tears XD
And then I explained it to my sister and I legit started crying XD
I dreamt that Athena had to die for whatever reason but we couldn't take her to a vet so we had to kill her ourselves T_T I don't know why but we were gonna feed her something that was gonna kill her, and I was the one who had to do it
I was holding the food and Athena was sitting right in front of me, just calmly looking at me with her big, innocent puppy eyes and you guys have no idea how much it hurts to imagine her innocent eyes look up at me while I'm about to take her life
I immediately threw the food away and threw myself over the sink and started bawling my eyes out and that's when I woke up, and I had to try so hard to hold back my tears T_T I had to watch art videos to get my mind off of Athena's sad, innocent face
WHY DO I HAVE SUCH HORRIBLE DREAMS 😭😭😭
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I CAN'T BREATHE ALSJAPAJAJ
I was watching Carl wander around on our balcony and he stood up on a chair and stared at me through the glass, like he usually does when he wants nuts lol
And then he fucKING LEAPED AT THE DOOR AND HUNG ON THE DOORHANDLE ALXPAJWND
Carl's a madman 😂😂
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I was invited to a small party tomorrow by one of my friends but Amalie and T are out of town, so R is the person I'm closest to who will actually be there >_< I'm scared but I think I'm gonna try to go anyway! XD This girl has invited the whole group out 4 times and I canceled EACH TIME so I really have no choice, she's gonna start to think that I hate her 😭😂
I'm not looking forward to meeting them all again, I'm too ashamed of myself 😂 I spoke more with them in those few hours last weekend than I have probably my entire life-
Today, my family and I did a little bit of shopping in a town about an hour away from my home :D It was mainly just to get all of us out of the house and so I could get more practice actually buying things because ya girl has social anxiety and I hate going up and paying for things so I almost never do it XD
It went fine lmao, I just wanted to get a little bit more practice so it's one less thing to worry about >w> I bought a little something at the book store but the girl in the register looked more afraid than I did 😂 I already walked away when I realized that she never asked me if I wanted a bag and I never asked for a bag so I felt kinda stupid =3= But at least I finally have a palette knife now! XD My parents asked me what it was for an my reply was literally "I'm not quite sure but Bob Ross uses it"
I also really only have one pair of jeans that I wear and ya girl should probably wear jeans more often, so I bought a pair of black jeans and a pair of white jeans because I'm too self-conscious in blue jeans for whatever reason 😂✌️
I was trying on some different pairs of jeans (which was good because I brought small and medium to try on and I ended up buying extra small TwT), and my mom and sister was waiting outside
So between trying on the jeans, I would stick my arm out and give my mom the pairs that were way too big so she could put them away while I tried on the other pairs
After I had tried them all on, I went to look for the pair that I already owned
I gave them to my mom to put back 😭😭😭
