Finally the good weather is hitting us 😩
I'm always that one person that still wears a jacket and brings my school bag to school even though we don't need it XD
I have summer vacation now!! :D I have mixed feelings about it lol
I always get a little sad going home that day, but by the next day I'm already loving having time off lol
I think I'm just having mixed feelings because that might've been my last time in that school XD I'm feeling a lot of things right now because T has decided not to move away anyway and that kinda felt like getting hit by a train, so it's been kinda hard to wrap my mind around it lol
If another guy takes T's spot in the dorm, I'm finding a new place lmfao
I don't even want to live with one guy, I most definitely don't wanna live with two 😂 All my friends have already said that they would feel really uncomfortable if I moved in with two guys and I'm not even sure my parents would let me lol
So pray for me XDD I have no idea what to think at the moment but hopefully the shock will pass soon
Anywho, we ended school at 11 o'clock today and I met up with all my friends (I think we were 10 or 11 people all together?) and we all went to a cafe and sat outside :D
I feel so privileged, everyone keeps talking about how sunburnt they get/already are and I've never been sunburnt before lololol
I've gotten red and nearly sunburnt a few times, but my skin doesn't really get sunburnt 🤷♀️😂 I think I get tan pretty easily but I never have the patience to actually work on a tan lmao (even though tans look so good and I want one =3=)
After the cafe, Amalie, T and I bought R's birthday gifts (her birthday was last weekend but we're celebrating with her tomorrow)
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Guys I have a disease
It's the unable-to-have-healthy-obsessions-with-books disease :)
I've seriously been thinking about Pet Sematary all day long and all I've wanted to do was read more 😩
Luckily I got to read some more when I came home! :D I came to the part that my dad kept begging me to read lmao
I really didn't want to read that description XD If you know, you know... ;-; Just imagining that gory scene makes me feel sick, I most definitely don't want to watch the movie now lol
There was also a semi sex scene but I guess I should've expected that when it's a Stephen King book 🤦♀️ I'm just glad it wasn't nearly as graphic as the scene in IT-
That scene scarred me a bit because it was just so messed up XD The girl had an awful father that would beat her up and stuff so when she got a boyfriend who was equally manipulative and violent, I guess she kind of liked it and it was just such a disturbing scene lol
It felt like half-rape, if that makes any sense? XD Like it was so forceful and manipulative and awful, but the girl also kinda liked it and she went along but it just felt so messed up and ahhh I don't know why I'm explaining this to you guys!! XD
The scene from Pet Sematary just left me thinking "what the fuck did I just read" lmao
Also, I think Pet Sematary was the cause of my nightmare last night T_T I dreamt that Misty was injured and she was bleeding so badly, so my mom and I brought her to the vet but they were like "we're too busy, come back tomorrow" but I was like "she's bleeding out you fucker" and then the building burnt down and yeah XD
Every time I've passed Misty today, I've had to cuddle her and say "I'm so glad you're alive" lol
I HATE THE THOUGHT OF PETS DYING, I've dreamt of Misty dying before and I hate it because I get sad over it for like a week T_T
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My friends and I met up again in the evening and hung out at one of my friend's houses and just sat outside and chilled for a few hours lol
It was kinda funny because Amalie and I came first and we were looking out the window at who was coming next, and we both looked equally depressed when we saw who it was
R was walking up with JT 🤦♀️
The look Amalie and I gave each other was priceless lmao
Apparently R and another friend ran into JT earlier and felt like they had to invite her :') I don't really have that much against her, but there are a few instances that are burned into my memory (like when she told me to "get myself together" when the drama with Mal was going on, I will never not be angry about that), plus she's just the kind of person that talks shit about everyone behind their backs and I don't trust her
Amalie and I have a lot of history with her and she's caused both of us a lot of drama, so we're not particularly fond of spending time with her XD I can handle her when it's just the two of us, but I can't stand having her around when my other friends are around
Plus I was hoping that she was officially a part of my past since I'm finished with that school now =3=
At some point we started talking about meeting up on Monday and JT asked if she could join too and my soul left my body
I really hope she won't keep getting invited >_< I know that sounds horrible but it's trueee, I hope she finds happiness with other people ;w;
Anywho, I got ate up by mosquitos
It was seriously so bad at some point, we all just covered ourselves as much as possible and was constantly smacking away mosquitos and trying to move around
I was getting so paranoid that it started to feel like bugs were crawling up and down my body and that my entire body was itching and ahhh
I hate mosquitoes T_T I don't have the level of self control that's needed to not scratch at mosquito bites lol
But yeah, otherwise it was a very nice night XD I'm really happy that I'm actually getting invited to these nights, and that they actually want me there ╰(*'︶'*)╯♡
It's actually really good practice for me because it's expanding my social battery lolol
Though I still feel people-hungover and mentally exhausted after being around people for 4 hours earlier today, and then another 5 hours later 😩
I actually feel dead lmao
The bad thing about hanging out with them is that it completely fucks with my art and posting schedule =3= It's taking up a lot of my drawing time and I can't finish drawings on time ;-;
But whatever, the important part is that I'm posting at all, even if I'm not posting on the days I would like to post on! XD
Ok I'm going to sleep now lol, I hope you guys have had a very nice day ╰(*'︶'*)╯♡
