TART The Sequel (TART 4)

NEED. BOOKS.

Have we been blessed? 😭

26°c on Tuesday?! Am I seeing things?! XD

I'm crossing my fingers for thunderstorms on Saturday, Sunday and Monday next week >w< Probably won't happen but I can hope! T^T

This is the only thing that annoys me though

I hate how we barely get any hours of darkness in the summer =3= I always wake up a million times in the morning because it's too bright

I better get a tan after this week XD I've been outside more or less all day today (plus yesterday) and my knees are the only areas that have gotten any darker lmao

I've been reading so much Pet Sematary lately XD I've read a little over 200 pages so far👌 I'll probably be finished with it in two or three days, depending on how much I'm outside

I officially can't read any more Pet Sematary before I go to sleep lmao

I still don't find it scary yet, it's just the whole concept of pets dying and coming back to life but not quite being "alive" that just messes with my head T_T

Right now I really wish we had a decent library in town because I want BOOKSSSS

It's tiny as fuck, probably only has ancient books and I refuse to read books in any other language than English :') At least there's a really good library where I'm moving, according to my mom XD Now I just keep thinking "what if I don't get in the school?" ;-;

I keep talking so much about moving and going to a new school but it's not even certain that I'm gonna get in and I don't know how to face everyone if I don't get in and have to continue with school in town XD We'll see in a month if I actually get in or not :')

I checked out the facebook page for that class and I'm even more excited after seeing all the art projects they've been working on >w< I even occasionally saw some anime or Ghibli fanart and I felt a little bit of hope because there might actually be people with similar interests as me there-

And then I remembered that I have something in common with everyone there anyway because we all love art XD That makes me a little more hopeful lol, because now that T isn't going, I feel like I've lost all my safety nets and I'm just freefalling through the sky - and I'm a person who always has a million safety nets

It's kinda exciting but also really scary XD Even if I didn't make any friends, I would still have T, but that's not the case anymore and I'm kinda afraid of ending up alone >_<

And we all know how my social skills are T_T

So yeah, I'm pretty nervous about the living situation and about making friends but otherwise I'm excited! XD And scared! But also excited! Lmao

I keep telling myself that even if I end up being alone, it doesn't really matter because I'll be going there for my future and for my dreams, and everything there is only temporary anyway because I'm gonna move away again once I'm finished in three years

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I wonder what people would think if anyone went through my camera roll and saw this:

^ this is how I record the voiceovers for my videos lmao

I literally just record my blanket while talking XD

Speaking of my art, I'm so mad!! T_T I googled characters who have birthdays in June because when I don't know who to draw, I like to draw characters for their birthdays

And one of the characters that showed up was Flayn from Fire Emblem: Three Houses

But when I double checked, her birthday was a month later!! After I already started on a drawing of her for her birthday!! T^T

I was so upset about this =3= (I covered up all the potential spoilers lol)

I guess I'll just have to repost the drawing on her birthday =3=

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R thought that Amalie, T and I were just gonna have a regular girl's night at her place last night, but we were really gonna celebrate her birthday because she didn't have time last week :D

So we brought this huge box of silly gifts for her lol (we give each other weird gifts for birthdays and serious gifts for Christmas)

We spoke for a long time and then decided to watch the third Twilight movie because I mentioned that I've only really seen the first two (I only watch them with my mom, and I wasn't keen on going through sex scenes with her lmao so I'm too scared to watch the rest with her)

I recognized a lot of the scenes from that movie though so I must've seen it before, but it was a really long time ago so it was nice to watch it again :D It's kinda funny how R and T kept making fun of and commenting on everything lmao

My favorite part was when R's little brother walked in and asked "aRe ThEy MaKiNg OuT?" and Amalie just nonchalantly said "soon" lmfao, I hope he wasn't too traumatized XD

R's cat (which used to be Amalie's cat) kept jumping up on the couch next to me and laying down and I would squeal every time because I got so happy >w< So I kept cuddling with her

Every now and then she would get a little playful and start biting on my hands so I have a few scratches but it was worth it XD

After the movie, we played a game that I think was called Tekken? It felt like the playstation equivalent of Smash lol

I only recognized one character and it was Noctis, but he wasn't unlocked and I was sad :'>

Ok my memory is failing me so have a nice day/night ╰(*'︶'*)╯♡