Beautiful like a rose 🌹 but... fragile like a bomb 💣

Cap 80

Domenico: Massimo is....  pfff I think he really had something to solve.

Maya: Uncle, you really didn't realize?

Especially you, he's your brother, you're supposed to know him better than anyone else!

I can't believe none of you noticed?

Domenico: What should we observe, princess?

Maya: ( in a sad voice ) His eyes, Massimo's eyes look so sad

He is suffering, I don't know why, but I know he needs our help now!

The 3 adults looked at each other in astonishment, not knowing what to answer.

Maya: What's with those surprised looks?  Even a Don has the right to suffer!  He is a human being like all of us.

Now let's go!  We can't waste any more time!

Maya: (gesturing impatiently) Mommy, you go downstairs with Auntie, while I and uncle look for him upstairs!

The one who finds him first announces the other team through the phone .

If we don't find him in half an hour, we meet in the back yard to reorganize and change our strategy.

Before Laura, Olga and Domenico can say anything, little Maya runs upstairs.

In the meantime ....

Massimo pov:

He leaves the room trying to control his feelings, clenching his fists tightly.

He speeds past the bodyguards who were trying to ask him if they could help him with something, but Massimo motioned for them to disappear from his face.

He was heading towards a more secluded part of the Inner Courtyard.

It was the place closest of his soul, the place where he went every time he felt the need to be alone.

When he wanted to be alone with his thoughts, without anyone disturbing him.

This portion of the Inner Courtyard, had a huge tree, with thick branches that formed a curtain that allowed you to easily hide from prying eyes.

Massimo sits down on the grass by the trunk of that tree and stares blankly for several minutes.

Massimo: Damn it! What is wrong with me?

What is happening to me ?

Just when I thought I had managed to bury the past, she's suddenly reappears in my life.

Why? Why did she come back after so many years?

All these years, after that cursed night, all I wanted was to die, to end all this suffering!

And now I have to look her in the eye again.

I can't! I simply can't!....
An amalgam of feelings overwhelm me!

I feel like a monster because I hurt her! I'm ready to give her my gun and beg her to have mercy on me and put an end to this ordeal, but at the same time I look her in the eye and I'm ready to do anything, she asked me just to win her forgiveness!

But I can't do that! No no ...

I can't destroy her life for the second time!

I know that no matter how hard I try, I will eventually fail!

That's how it happens every time.

All the persons, that I truly loved in this life suffered because of me.

I wasn't able to protect my own son, I couldn't save him!

His mother, the woman I love with all my being, lived through an ordeal because of me and was close to death.

I can't let this happen again!

I will don't permit this!

Is time to put an end to everything !

Will be better for everybody!

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