To Be Loved... (BOOK 1)

A Beautiful Goodbye

I pulled up to Felix's house and, as always, ran to the other side and got the door for him. He took my hand in his as we both walked up his driveway. I wasn't going inside, but I felt like it was rude to just drive away. Plus, I wanted to kiss him one more time before I said goodbye.

"Thank you again," he smiled, "for tonight."

"Of course," I returned a smile. We both leaned in for one last kiss until the door swung open.

"Look who it is!" Minho cheered. Felix and I stepped away from each other in a hurry.

"Minho, will you leave them alone?" A voice shouted from afar.

"Jisung?" I laughed. On cue, he stuck his head out under Minho's arm.

"Hey bestie." He smiled.

"How did I not know you guys were friends?" Felix joined the conversation.

"What are you saying? You knew." Jisung laughed.

"Hey, I didn't know you guys were friends either." I said. Jisung looked at the both of us like we were crazy until his expression changed.

"Hyun, meet Yongbok. Yongbok, meet Hyun."

Felix and I both gasped dramatically, looking at each other in shock.

"You get Hyun from Hyunjin obviously. Sometimes it's Jinnie, sometimes it's Hyunjinnie. But where does Yongbok come from?" How on earth is Felix actually Yongbok?

"It's my Korean name." He said awkwardly. "But only people in the house say it. Jisung calls me Yongbok because he's practically family at this point."

"Ji, how often are you at this house?" I laughed.

"A good amount." He nodded.

Felix pointed at me, but looked at Jisung and Minho. They both shook their heads faintly.

"Alright, what's going on?" I'm starting to believe Wooyoung is right because what the hell was that?

"Are you gonna tell him?" Minho said to Jisung.

Jisung took a deep breath and dragged me away from the Lee brothers as they began their own conversation.

"What's going on with you and Minho? Tell me the truth. You're my best friend, you know I'd never judge you." I put my hands on his shoulders to show support.

He took a deep breath and closed his eyes. "Minho...is my boyfriend." I kept a neutral face, not wanting to make him uncomfortable as he opened his eyes. "Yeah, I'm gay. I didn't know until Minho. But it's not how you think. The most we've ever done is make out. Nothing sexual, nothing super deep. That's it. I didn't tell you because I'm a bad best friend and I was scared."

"No," I shook my head, "you're not a bad best friend. You weren't ready to tell me and that's okay. I feel like you still weren't ready to tell me just now so I'm proud of you, okay?" He nodded and quickly pulled me in for a tight hug. "Your parents don't know, do they?" I knew how his parents were. Whenever I thought my parents were bad, I just remembered Jisung's existed.

"Fuck no." He shook his head on my shoulder. "They'd kick me out of the house."

"True." I nodded.

We broke away from each other and sighed. I could tell there was a weight that had been lifted off his shoulders.

"So how was the date?" He smiled. I blushed and looked down at the ground, playing with the hem of my shirt. "Good, I'm guessing?" I nodded with a sheepish smile. "Did you kiss?" He whispered. I nodded again. "Oh my god, dude!" He shouted. I slapped my hand over his mouth and looked at Felix and Minho who now had their eyes on us.

"Yes, we kissed. Now keep your voice down." I whispered, detaching my hand.

"I can't believe it. Hwang Hyunjin is finally in love."

"That's a bold statement, don't you think?"

"Says the guy who sketches his face in his notebook every period."

"Still a bold statement."

"We'll see." He winked.

"Would you say you're in love with Minho?"

Jisung blew air from his mouth to sound like an elephant and puckered his lips.

"Touchy subject."

"Because you're just not or you're afraid?"

"Second one.

"And how long have you been together?"

"Almost a year."

"Han Jisung!" I gasped.

"And you tell me to be quiet." He shook his head. "Come on." We walked back to Minho and Felix together.

"Goodnight, Hyunjin." Minho waved, pulling Felix inside by the arm around his shoulder. Jisung followed as well.

"Goodnight." I awkwardly said. "Goodnight, Felix."

"Goodnight, Jinnie." He waved from inside. It was my typical nickname, but hearing him say it made my heart swell.

Once the door was finally closed, I started to walk towards my car. But I heard the door open again, making me turn around.

"Oh my god." I whispered to myself to see Felix running towards me. Before I could say a word, he put his arms around my neck and kissed me. I held his waist and lifted him in the air, spinning us around slowly. I pulled away and rested my forehead on his. "I'll text you when I get home, okay?"

"Good." He smiled. I set him back down on the ground and walked to my side of the car. He watched me with his arms crossed and the biggest smile known to man.

"Bye, Yongbok." I smiled.

"Bye, Jinnie." He waved.

Maybe falling in love isn't such a bold statement after all.