To Be Loved... (BOOK 1)

Tainted Acceptance

"So yeah, that's what happened last night." I sighed. Wooyoung came to my house later on rather than me going there because I knew Minho would recognize my car and think I'm spying on him. Plus, my parents wanted him to stay for dinner.

"I'm just going to keep my mouth shut." He shrugged and crossed his arms. I can only imagine what thoughts are roaming through his brain right now.

"Just say it, Woo."

"This is what he gets for being a stubborn, insecure, jealous little prick." And there it is. "I've always stayed quiet when it came to Jisung and you know that. But to put any type of blame on me and San is gross. How about you be happy for people instead of getting angry that someone is more secure than you? I'll probably sympathize in a day or two, but not right now." He groaned and shook his head. "Holy shit, I can't stand him."

"Do you feel better now?" Unfortunately, I knew he had a lot to get off his chest when it came to Jisung. He's kept a lot from me when it comes to this subject, which I respect, but I'm giving him a pass for tonight.

"For now." He crossed his legs and rested his hands on his knees, giving me the most severe eye roll of the century.

I sighed. "This is your only pass, just get it o-"

"How dare he get jealous of our friendship!" He shouted. There it is. "Jisung had Jeongin, he had Kai, he had Changbin. I had no one!" Wooyoung isn't one to get aggressive, or even yell in this way but again, I knew he had a lot buried inside. "You remember I was bullied in middle school for being gay, no one wanted to be my friend. At least everyone was able to hide it. You, Minho, San, but I couldn't because that's just how I was. I couldn't fake it no matter how hard I tried. I only had you. You were there for me the whole fucking time. You never left my side, you never judged me. You are my best friend. I don't care how close he thinks you guys were or are. You will never mean to him what you mean to me." I noticed his eyes were glossy so I rushed over and hugged him. "He always thought he was better than me in every single way, well he's not. He can play the innocent victim all he wants because of his parents, but that doesn't give him the right to hurt other people. I know I definitely didn't." His voice was calmer once he was in my arms, resting his head on my shoulder. "I tried to be friends with him for your sake. I don't know how you put up with him. I don't know why Minho did to begin with. I mean, I hope Jisung gets his shit together for Minho's sake because I want him to be happy, but I don't see it happening. Take notes from San, you fucking dick. That's the difference between a man and a boy. That's why he's jealous and angry. He knows he's nothing but a little kid who will never be happy for others because he'll never be happy himself...okay I'm done now."

I should've known he felt that strongly. I thought it was just a mild disliking for Jisung. I think we all need time away from him for a few reasons. If Wooyoung and San are about to start a relationship, Jisung needs to be ten feet away from them because it'll just make him angrier. Minho deserves a healthy, happy relationship too. He's spent too much time babysitting Jisung's feelings.

"You'll always be my best friend. No matter what. You know, I tell people you're the closest thing I have to a brother."

"You're my brother too, Hyunjin."

"I hope San knows how close we are so he doesn't get any wrong ideas." I laughed, trying to lighten the mood.

"Trust me, he knows." He smiled. "He knows everything."

"That quickly?"

"I think it's funny how I was afraid to talk to him and now he doesn't get a chance to speak because I don't shut up." He laughed, but also had bright red cheeks just from talking about him.