To Be Loved... (BOOK 1)

Discovering Heartbreak

Jisung's POV:

"Guys!" Felix busted through the door. This was a normal occurrence. Typically, he'd listen closely first. If he didn't hear anything mildly inappropriate, he would come in unannounced.

"Hmm?" Minho hummed.

"Hyunjin just followed me on Instagram." Felix squealed.

"Message him." I suggested.

"No," Minho disagreed, "wait for him to message you. Shows he's a real man."

"Hyunjin probably isn't interested like that. I'm just grateful for this." Felix shrugged and left the room.

"How the hell did he not notice Hyunjin staring him down all night?" Minho couldn't believe it and neither could I.

"I have a plan. It's the greatest plan of all time actually."

"Oh yeah?" He laughed.

"I've only called Felix 'Yongbok' in front of Hyunjin as a habit."

"I think I know where this is going."

I climbed on top of Minho and started to pepper his face with kisses. I loved hearing him laugh. It makes me happy.

"I'll ask Hyunjin if he wants to hang out with me and Yongbok but it's really Felix. Bang."

"Bang!"

"Bang!" This had turned into a whole finger gun shooting in his room.

He finally had enough and tackled me so that my back was against the bed.

"Hi." He looked at me with a small twinkle in his eyes.

"Hi." I was beyond lucky to have him. There's truly no one better. He's been so patient with me throughout our entire relationship. I know sometimes it's hard for him, but it's because he cares about me. I'm not sure when I'll be ready to say 'I love you'. We've been together for a little less than a year and I know he's highly anticipating that moment. Sometimes I feel bad because I think he deserves better, but he's always reassured me that I'm the only one he wants to be with.

Hyunjin's POV:

"So have you messaged him yet?" Wooyoung whispered. It was the next morning in History class and I just wanted to go back to sleep.

"Have you messaged San?" I planned on making that my counter every time he dared to ask.

"You're so annoying." He leaned back in his desk and crossed his arms. "At least you have a chance here. Do something." He seemed upset instead of being playful like he always is.

Five minutes passed and Wooyoung had raised his hand, asking to go to the bathroom. I wish I could come up with an excuse to leave the room as well because I know he needed someone. Something must've happened with San.

I snuck my phone under the desk and tried to see if I could figure it out.

Hyunjin
What's wrong?

Woo
I don't wanna talk about it

Hyunjin
Something with San?

Woo
Hyunjin please

Hyunjin
Okay I'm sorry

You know I'm here

Him using my full name instead said enough. He'll tell me, he's just upset. But I still don't like not knowing.

Hyunjin
Tf did San do

Yeonjun
Ugh

He fucked Ryujin last night and Changbin told him this morning

Hyunjin
Shit

I knew he was straight too

That also explains why Changbin never tried to set them up

Clearly he knew San wasn't into Wooyoung

Woo ran to the bathroom just now

Yeonjun
Which one

Hyunjin
History wing

Yeonjun
Alright I'll go

I hated this. One of the worst things in the entire world is Wooyoung being upset. He's pretty much the brightest part of my day so when the light dims, it almost feels like all hell is about to break loose.

It's been 20 minutes and he still isn't back. I can't just sit here, it's tearing me apart. I raised my hand, hoping I could get out of class.

"Yes, Hyunjin?" Mrs. Park called quietly since everyone was doing their work.

"Can I go to the nurse's office? My...condition is acting up." I whispered. Hyperhidrosis is the most normal thing in the world but I use it to my advantage so I can get out of things. But I won't lie, being on edge like this is definitely giving me sweaty palms.

"Yes, of course." She nodded. I left and rushed to the bathroom, then immediately spotted Wooyoung silently crying in Yeonjun's arms. I could tell he was tired by his stillness.

"Come here." Wooyoung detached himself from Yeonjun and fell into my arms, crying all over again. He gripped onto my shirt and sniffled.

"This isn't fun." He whispered through the tears.

"I know." I rubbed his back to comfort him the best I could.

"I mean I knew I never had a chance, but to be reminded first thing in the morning isn't how I wanted to start my day."

"You never know." Yeonjun added, putting his hand on Woo's arm.

"But I do." Wooyoung let go of me and started to wipe his tears while forcing a sad smile. "San is...that's someone I know is really far out of my league. It would probably be helpful if I started crushing on guys that actually liked guys, right?" He tried to make a joke, but Yeonjun and I were heart broken by the scene. "I'll be okay." He nodded, trying to fix his hair and wipe his eyes. "We got other things to worry about."

"Like?" What could possibly be more important than this?

"You and Felix." He tried to be encouraging, but I didn't want to hear it. Wooyoung is more important.

"No, that's on hold for right now. How about we all hang out tonight?"

"I can't-" Yeonjun spoke.

"Cancel your fucking plans." I grit through my teeth, giving him the most horrifying glare I possibly could. My point got across by the way he was frantically nodding.