To Be Loved... (BOOK 1)

One Step Forward, One Step Back

"Holy shit, we fell asleep!" Somehow my body jolted itself awake, remembering I'm not even supposed to be here. "Lixie, wake up." I lightly shook him as he stubbornly groaned. "Baby, please. I gotta go home. My parents might get mad if they realize I'm not there." Felix sluggishly lifted himself up, barely able to stay awake. I thought he looked so cute with his hair sticking out everywhere and his eyes nearly squinted shut. "Good morning." I smiled. He just nodded and rubbed his eyes. "We gotta go home, angel." I whispered.

"This is home."

"Not mine." I shook my head. "Come on." We both got out of bed and put our shoes back on. We needed Wooyoung to bring us home since he picked me up and Felix doesn't drive yet. "Woo." I knocked on his door.

"Give me a minute!" He shouted. "Okay, come in!" I opened the door to see the comforter up to San and Wooyoung's noses.

"Oh, for fuck's sake." I scoffed. "I would've waited for you to put clothes on. But I need you to take me and Felix home." Wooyoung groaned dramatically and ripped the covers off himself. "Oh, come on dude, really?" I covered my eyes, unwilling to look at his naked body any longer.

"You'll live." He pulled a pair of sweatpants over his legs and grabbed San's shirt off the floor. I could tell San was smiling under the blanket.

The three of us were on our way to Felix's first. I told Wooyoung I wanted to talk to him for a little bit.

"Lixie, we're here." I whispered. I sat in the backseat with him so he could sleep on my lap. He shook his head and held onto my knee. "Come on, baby." I slowly lifted him up and I could tell he was upset. I decided to walk him to his front door to talk to him. "Felix, what's wrong?"

"When am I gonna be able to see you?" My parents don't like Felix, I know that. I don't blame them since he did break up with me after all. But maybe I could convince them that it was a misunderstanding.

"I'll come over here, just tell me when."

"Tomorrow?" The innocence in his eyes made my heart melt; he's so beautiful.

"Okay, I'll be here." I leaned in to kiss him until the door swung open.

"Oh, what a pleasant surprise!" Of course it was Minho. I swear he stalks us through the window. "So are you two back together or do I have to deal with the 'I don't know if he wants to be with me' and 'I don't know what we are' bullshit." He says that as if he didn't ask us the same questions about Jisung months ago.

I don't think Felix and I actually established anything. He sort of just confessed, I was in shock, we made out, and fell asleep.

We looked at each other and shrugged.

"Yeah, I think so." I turned towards Minho and nodded. "That work for you?" I looked at Felix and couldn't help but laugh at the massive smile on his face.

"Alright, well I'll let you two get back to it." Without either of us able to get another word in, he closed the door.

"Why are you still smiling?" His happiness was contagious. I started to smile just as big as he was. Instead of saying anything, he wrapped his arms around my waist and kissed my lips.

"I'm just really happy." He kissed my cheek and rested his chin on my chest to look up at me. "I missed you. I missed us. I just...I just love you."

"I love you too." I couldn't help but admire him. I genuinely believed that was the end of our relationship. I figured he'd want to be friends down the road eventually, but this was the last thing I was expecting. "I promise, it'll be better this time. I'll be better."