To Be Loved... (BOOK 1)

More Secrets

Felix's POV:

It had been three days since the party. I was with the usual group nowadays: my brother, Changbin, Jisung, San, and myself.

I'm the only person besides San that know the extent of what went on between him and Wooyoung. If I'm being honest, I didn't want to be around him because of it. How could he do something so slimy to such a good person? Wooyoung and I have talked every day since I had last seen him. He's told me that him and San have talked sporadically in the past, nothing too serious. I wish I could say something, but I think it's best if I talk to Minho first. San either goes to my brother or his friend, Yeosang.

"Yongbok, do you wanna invite Hyunjin?" We all decided to go to a random burger joint. It was late because San and Changbin have football practice every school day so I didn't really feel like going out to begin with.

"No, it's okay." Everyone seemed confused by my response, but it was really because I felt like he wouldn't be able to fake his emotions around San. Although Wooyoung was older than Hyunjin, it seemed like their brotherly roles were reversed. He was very protective of Wooyoung. They're very different so it's understandable. Wooyoung possesses a childlike innocence to him, but also deeply cares for the people around him. Hyunjin strikes me as someone who forced themselves to grow up and stays away from others. Something tells me it has to do with the fact that he's an only child. He was just so used to being alone. On top of that, his parents don't seem the best either from what he's mentioned.

"Did he do something?" Minho got defensive, already in overprotective brother mode.

"No," I shook my head, "he's just with Wooyoung right now." I watched San get tense at the mention of his name.

He stood up, "I gotta use the bathroom real quick."

"Me too." I followed. He definitely knows I know what happened.

"Felix, you don't need to ignore me." He immediately said once the door closed.

"I don't like what you did. That's it." I shrugged. "Wooyoung wasn't the person to do that to."

"He said he was fine with it!" He was oblivious it seemed. He had no idea just how much Wooyoung liked him.

"Answer me this...have you seriously been keeping an eye on him just to drunkenly fuck him, tell him it was a one time thing, then try and constantly talk to him afterwards? You know you took his virginity, that wasn't just some hook up to him."

I'm realizing now that this is another plain case of not wanting people to know who you really are because of your reputation.

"I don't know what to do, okay?" His tone changed. "He's just...different."

"San, just don't do this to him. He's not the one to mess around with." I was debating whether or not I should spill Wooyoung's secret feelings for him. I know that's messed up and I'm not usually like that but I don't know how else to get it through his thick skull.

"So what am I supposed to do? Apologize? I mean, is he really that upset?"

"Yes!" I thought that was beyond obvious. "I don't think you understand how this can affect someone like him. Take it from me, being openly bisexual in high school is hard, San. It's fucking hard and it's lonely. I'm so lucky that I have Hyunjin, but you remember what happened with me and Seungmin. That's how it goes. This is the age where egotistical guys don't want to admit they're not as straight as they think they are and it ends up hurting the people they toy around with. Especially someone like you and especially someone like him. You fuck around with girls, that's what you do. Whatever, they know what they signed up for. But he was your first, San. For a split second, he thought he was special. He told me everything you said to him. He believed you at first."