To Be Loved... (BOOK 1)

Late Night Bickering

Wooyoung's POV:

"They are literally screaming in the other room." I shook my head, trying to hang ornaments on the tree.

"It's their first time, let them have their moment." San picked me up to help me reach closer to the top.

"As you can clearly see, I am letting them have it." He lowered me down and went back to putting some on by himself. I smiled fondly, fully acknowledging Felix and Hyunjin. I'm just remembering all the times Hyunjin and I would joke about him dying a virgin. 

"What?"

"It's just nice that it's their first time together and I just know it's probably really loving and intimate."

San had a confused expression. "Is that supposed to mean something?" That's when I became confused.

"What?"

"Like 'oh it's so nice they're having sex for the first time because they love each other instead of a drunk hookup' or am I reading this entirely wrong."

"Drunk hookup, very nice." I nodded. "Good to know that's what that was for you."

"Wooyoung, you know I don't mean it like that."

"And you should've known I didn't mean it like that either, yet here we are. You really think I'd be shady like that towards you? Are you serious right now?"

"Alright, I'm sorry." He said it in such a way where I knew he just wanted to move on rather than seem sincere.

I was willing to get past the misunderstanding, but to call our first time a 'drunk hookup' hurt. It was so much more to me than that. That was the night we met, he took care of me, he took my virginity, we woke up next to each other the next morning and cuddled all night long. But apparently that wasn't the right way to think about it.

"Go home or leave the room for like two minutes. Take your pick." I tried my best to stay calm. He didn't argue with me and just left me alone. I took long deep breaths, attempting to regain composure. "Drunk hookup." I said aloud. "Choi San!" I screamed. He awkwardly and slowly came back into my room, closing the door gently. "Let me make one thing abundantly clear to you." I walked over, meeting eye level with him. "That was not a drunk hookup. Don't you ever fucking say that again. You're lucky that night even happened, otherwise you wouldn't be here in this damn room." I could tell he was intimidated. He clenched his jaw tight and looked directly into my eyes as I spoke. "You're not stupid so don't say stupid things. What I meant was that I'm happy that Hyunjin fucking loves someone enough to even get to that level. This had nothing to do with you or me. So tell me now, is there something else in your head that made you spit that shit out or were you dead serious? I'm giving you that chance because I know your brain well."

"Fuck, you're scary." He looked left and right with wide eyes.

"San." I was losing patience.

"I'm sorry." He sounded more genuine compared to his first apology. "I don't know why I thought that's what you meant." He looked away from me.

"Don't take your shit out on me. Get defensive and weird somewhere else, but not here." He looked at me lovingly rather than seeming afraid like before. "What, why are you looking at me like that?"

"I just love you."

I lightly smacked him on the cheek. "The fuck is wrong with you?" I failed at trying to contain my smile.

"You've never gotten in my face like that before. What, was I not supposed to be wildly turned on by that?" He defended himself as if his argument was valid.