A Collection of Heartstopper Oneshots

I'm never gonna let you go - ssoukokulovebot

Summary:

People leave mean, upsetting, comments on Charlie's latest Instagram post, he is having a hard enough time with Nick being away at Univerity and he ends up believing the comments are true.
Notes:

Hello! My name is Troy, this is my first Charlie/Nick fic so I hope you enjoy it but first I have a couple of warnings.
This fic is a little sad but I promise there is a happy ending, it also includes self-harm, if this is a trigger to you I recommend not reading this one.
Work Text:
Charlie woke up and reached for his phone that was going off like crazy. He turned it on and squinted at the bright blinding light his phone screen gave off.

2 Missed calls from Nick.

7 New texts from Nick.

13 New Instagram notifications.

He sat up and checked the texts first.

Nick<3 - Morning Char

Nick<3- ignore the comment on your post

Nick<3- people keep adding to it, why do they have to be like this?

Nick<3- have you seen it yet?

Nick<3- ignore it, okay?

Nick<3- I love you

Nick<3 - please let me know how you are

Charlie was beyond confused. He clicked on an Instagram notification and saw the thread of comments. Great, just great.

The picture was of him and Nick celebrating their 2nd year anniversary online since Nick sadly couldn't make it home from university.

Ben27- you guys aren't gonna last much longer

Monty_DLC replied to Ben27's comment 'I bet Nick is cheating on him, I bet there's a ton of hot University girls lmao'

Ben27 replied to Monty_DLC's comment ' oh definitely, he's probably just dragging Charlie along because he's too afraid of him killing himself or some shit'

The thread continued and tears filled Charlie's eyes. What if what they were saying was right? What if Nick fell out of love with him? Nick could do so much better. He was unable to swallow the lump in his throat. He could usually brush stupid comments off but no one has ever said anything like this. These types of words made his hatred for himself come back, his heart felt heavy and it was almost like he couldn't breathe. He jumped out of bed and rushed to the bathroom to splash cold water on his face. He wiped the water off his face with a towel and looked at himself in the mirror. Tears burned his eyes. How could Nick love him? How could someone as perfect as Nick want someone so fucked up and broken like Charlie?

He bent down and dug through the bathroom cabinet looking for some type of elastic to put on his wrist. Charlie wore an elastic on his wrist all the time when he was getting bullied. Most of the time, it would stop him from self-harming, but nothing could stop him from hurting himself when things were really bad.

He dug through the cabinets and came across the old box of razors. Fuck. They were right there, it was so simple. This always made him stop hurting, even if it was temporary. He picked up the box and opened it, taking one of the razors into his hand. He couldn't think of anything else but the words people were saying. "Nick's gonna leave you." "Nicks cheating on you."

Nick was good to him, he wouldn't cheat but he couldn't control his feelings, he could fall out of love with Charlie and fall in love with some perfect person at his University.