Forever Her's

hurt

Anthony's pov

I feel strangely responsible for the accident. I should have been with her or somehow shouldn't have let her go on her own. If only I was there I could have protected her protected the little girl. My insides twisted with unbearable turmoil, I don't know how to ease this pain because I had never experienced this kind of hurt in my life. This foreign feeling crushing every nerve in my body turning me into a mush of flesh.

I want to ground her from going out without me but that'd be like hinder her from her freedom. She has dreams, she has a job that she loves. She worked hard to get where she is now. She has earned her respect in such an young age on her own talent and hardship and I couldn't be more proud of anything else. I can't just confine her freedom just because I love her.

By loving it means it's my responsibility to let her lead the life the way she wants even if she wants to try a dangerous hundred feet dive from a mountain ridge or just want to save a kid from getting hit by a car. It's my responsibility to be there and protect her from any possible threat. She deserves to be herself, do what she wants to do just like she'd do if I hadn't existed in her life but I do. I do exist now. Which makes it my job to protect her.

She should feel free and more secured having me in her life and encouraged to do more stuff that she couldn't do but always wanted to do. Having me should make her feel more liberated not incarcerated.

It's her nature, she loves kids she won't think about a second before putting herself in danger in order to save someone. And it's my responsibility to safeguard her and I can't help but to feel like I failed.

She, however managed to shoo away the heavy melancholy clouds. The guilt didn't magically vanish without trace but sure helped me cope with it. But I didn't want to alert her more than she's already in so I kept it afloat the smile that graces my face whenever she's infront of me.

I let her lean on her back on the bed making sure she's comfortable and I kissed her forehead. Her eyes searching mine with scrutiny and I worried she'd unveil the hurt I'd barely burried. She's already in pain and I don't want to add emotional one too.

My phone rang breaking the silence abode between our unbreakable stare at each other.
I turned my head down glad for the unexpected distraction. I'd love to dwell in her eyes for an eternity if that's the last thing I'll be doing but now it'll only hurt her and I can never let it happen.
"Hello" I said looking at my shoe tapping on the floor.
"Anthony you need to come to office right now" it was Frey. He sounded frustrated also in hurry.
"What happened" I had enough share of shocks for the day and wasn't in the mood for more.
"It's urgent. I'm on my way to the office. I'm sorry I know you want to be with Eva but something unexpected came up and we need to take care of it as fast as we can" now what? a heavy scrunch formed on my brows. Cursing under for the uncalled shit for a day.

"Okay I'm coming "
I turned to look at Eve only to find her already drifted in sleep. She looks trite.
"I'm sorry my love" I tucked in a strand of hair behind her ear. "Wish I could stay with you" a heavy sigh left my throat before I stood up and took in her sleeping figure assuring myself that she's in our home and asleep. I lowered all the blinds,put the air conditioning in full blast and cloaked her with duvets. Just like she likes. She will be asleep by the time I'll return.