*Lucas*
I put the flowers on the table and carry her bridal style. She's passed out, I just don't know how long she's been like this.
The doctors is seven minutes away, I place her gently in the car and I drive as fast as I can.
I'm really trying to hold myself from having an entire mental breakdown right now.
I go as quickly as I can, breathing seems difficult to do but it's happening just enough to stay alive.
I was barely just surviving already, but at least she's next to me.
The burns on my arm are a little better, but you can still see them and I still think of the moment over and over.
Stupidity at its finest.
I turn on the radio because it might help me not get lost in my own thoughts.
Taylor Swift.
"And I, chose you, the one, I was dancing with. In New York, no shoes."
Never heard that one before.
I called Lacy from my phone a few minutes ago because she was in my contacts, I thought she'd have her life together a little better than I did.
She's gonna meet me here, and take her inside.
I pull up to the driveway, and I see her in her car.
She jumps out and comes towards me, I unlock the door to grab her.
"You look like you just saw a ghost."
I don't say anything in response, I feel like a ghost sometimes if that makes sense. It doesn't make sense because I don't even understand.
She takes her in her arms, "She'll be fine, just a weak moment. Urgent care takes a while so i'll keep you updated, check your texts."
And with that, she leaves with the entire world in her hands.
When I fell asleep last night, I had the freakiest dream ever. I've always had night terrors that I just lose everything I once had. I was sitting in a tank and everyone I love or have loved was walking around in the giant room. The more crowded it gets, the more water that filled my tank. I drown in it and I hear the ding of an elevator, and her screams. Then I woke up.
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I've been in this car for forty minutes.
It's not that long of a time but it's still pretty long, so i'm getting pretty anxious.
I unintentionally start to shake and play with my hands.
This hasn't happened in a while, but it's happening now.
A panic attack.
It feels like water is filling my lungs, everything is crowded.
I start looking around, and just the thought of anything stresses me out.
I start hyperventilating.
I need a cigarette.
I unbuckle my seatbelt and it whips across me and i search the car for at least one cigarette and a lighter.
Nothing.
I can't find one.
I sink in the chair, I probably need to learn how to handle these without a higher chance of lung cancer.
It takes me a few minutes to settle down but I do eventually, I check the time on the phone but instead I see a message from Lacy.
Lacy: She's awake. Come inside.
Sent four minutes ago.
Crap.
I can't get anything right.
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