PJ Oneshots

Memories

A/N this is like 10 years after The Sun and The Star.

Warning there is negative self talk, mentions of self harm, and homophobia. Not that I am very against all of it. If you get triggered by any of that I suggest not reading this. If you really do not like reading this kind of stuff since that is all I have been doing for a little while.

Also apparently I am just torturing Will.

Nico screams next to me in bed thrashing and seizing up. As a doctor it looked so much like he was having a seizure but I knew he was not.

My beautiful boyfriend Nico was only having one of his bad dreams.

I lay next to him desperately trying to comfort and wake him up, unfortunately that was not working. I continued shaking him and whispering in his ear but nothing worked. Then he started talking.

"No, not him, please not him!" Nico begged with the creatures from his nightmare. "Not them either! Yes I know. I am not worth anything. Just don't hurt them."

Nico continued like this for a while and nothing I did seemed to help.

I internally sobbed at what Nico was saying. It seemed as if the creatures from his nightmares were convincing him that he was worth nothing. That he was was a disappointment. A freak for liking boys and being who he was.

I wrapped my arms around my small boyfriend and started to sob for him and myself.

I started to fade into unconsciousness and dreams. There were always dreams.

I was back in tartarus back in my worst nightmare and there was nothing I could do to get out of it.

"Ha! It's funny that you thought that I actually liked you. You think I would do something so disgusting? You really think I would do something so awful as to like a boy like someone of my own gender?!" Nico scoffed at me.

Did he really think it was so bad to like someone of the same gender? He was from the 1930s, maybe it was just that.

Did he really think that poorly of me? Well even if he didn't I was a horrible boyfriend. I could almost never calm him down.

"Nico please!" I screamed. Maybe he was only joking. Maybe.

A spear shot through Nico's body.I screamed again but it was too late. I could not save my boyfriend like I could not save any of the other patients that I lost. I could not save him in the same way I could never really help him when he was fading.

I wanted to hurt myself for being such an awful person.

"Yes Will that is right. You are so disgusting maybe I would even love you if you were only gay but no, you like everyone," this time it was my mother standing in front of me telling me I was worthless and that I was disgusting.

"You are too unnatural, just end it here."

I thought about it, really thought about it then I thought she was right.

"Will!" I heard a voice scream. A voice that I recognised.

I opened my eyes to find myself staring at my boyfriend. My beautiful, alive and breathing boyfriend that did not hate me in the slightest and in fact loved me.

I started sobbing into his chest. I cried with excitement, anger, sadness, and a whole other mix of emotions I could not name.

"Will?" This time my boyfriend's voice was much softer, not demanding in the slightest. It was comforting and the offer of a question that I did not need to answer. I did anyway.

"It was a bad dream." I did not explain anything else but I did not need to. He just hugged me tighter without asking a single question.

The next morning I woke up lying next to my boyfriend, the happiest I had been in a while.

A/N so what should I write about next? Tomorrow I will post something on my OG book and maybe a meme or headcanon or something but that is it. I might be not doing the best things for a little while because I am going to visit my friends so I apologize for that. I will do something for Frank and Grover's birthdays but that is in a little while. I need inspiration. If you liked the Overnight series please let me know because I do not have any inspiration for that at the moment.

Also please tell me if you like or dislike the depressing stuff or slightly depressing stuff because I will keep writing it if you want or I can stop.

I will take requests to a certain level so if you want to see something ask me and I will try my best.