Taylor x Travis: In Every Life

this is not a one shot

this is not the usual content i normally post, but i sat down to write and this is what happened

this is your reminder that there's a lot you don't know about people
and that life isn't always easy
i've never written poetry before, but it just came out of my mind today, and i'd rather share it with the world than keep it locked up in my head

-

so many things are clandestine in my mind
things i can't tell 
like a rope around my throat holds them back

how could i tell anyone these things?
they'll just say i'll be alright
hang in there

but what is there to hang onto?
a world bigger than anyone's grasp?
how could i reach for something when I don't know what i'm reaching for?

it's so much
so much noise for something so deadly silent
screaming in my ears i can't force out
it sticks in my throat when i open my mouth because i know

they'll just say i'll be alright
hang in there

i can't breathe
how could i?
ribbons of reality float past just out of reach
but i wouldn't grab them even if i could

eyes that bleed acid rain dont deserve this agony
too much has fallen already
but the ribbons of reality circle my neck
doubling the noose

they'll just say i'll be alright
hang in there

but what if it all crumbles
what then?
i'll stick out a hand and be met with a 

hang in there

hang in there

hang in there

so until my ears stop working and crumble into dust

i'll hang in there

-

when things are hard, this is where i come. i read back over your comments, your posts on my conversation board, and it makes me smile. it makes me feel better, like i'm not alone, like there's people who like what i do.

and i know this isn't the kind of thing you'd usually get from me, so i'm sorry if this offends you for whatever reason, but thoughts trapped inside are more dangerous than thoughts written down and shared. i'm not here to pretend that everything is amazing. if you'd like to, if you're comfortable, feel free to share your thoughts here too.

for those who don't know, i'm Lauren. i have adhd and anxiety, and writing helps. you guys help. so thank you, you have no idea how much you guys really mean the world to me. i don't know what i would do without this, without you.

so thank you, so much <3