𝗬𝗼𝘂𝗧𝘂𝗯𝗲𝗿 𝗜𝗺𝗮𝗴𝗶𝗻𝗲𝘀 𝗕𝗼𝗼𝗸 𝗢𝗻𝗲

𑁍𝗦𝘁𝘂𝗿𝗻𝗶𝗼𝗹𝗼𝘀~𝗠𝗼𝗼𝗱 𝗖𝗵𝗮𝗻𝗴𝗲𝘀𑁍

A/N~This was requested by zenthegreatest, I hope you and everyone else likes it.

TW~Panic attack, anxiety and depression.

Matt's POV

I've been noticing stuff about Y/N recently, and I'm getting worried. She's usually a really bubbly and happy person, but sometimes, she can go quiet and keep herself in her room for hour at a time.

I'm not sure if Chris and Nick have noticed it yet, so I decided to bring it up to them before we started filming our car video.

Y/N would usually be with us, but yet again, she made the decision to stay home because she was 'tired'. Now, I'm not saying that she's not tired, but she's normally really hyper and energetic, so of course I was worried.

"Gus, before we start filming, have you noticed Y/N's mood changes?" I ask, as Chris look relieved. "You've seen it too? Thank God, I thought that I was the only one." He spoke, but Nick looked confused.

"What's wrong with Y/N?" He questions, looking awfully concerned for our little sister.

"Well, she used to be a really outgoing and cheery person, but me and Matt have been noticing that she zones out sometimes, and will stay in her room for ages." Chris says, but then it clicked in my mind. The zoning out, disconnecting from people and other stuff. Maybe she has anxiety.

"I think she might have anxiety." I suggest, as my brothers both think to themselves. "Yeah, let's let her be for now, but if it gets worse, we'll help her." Nick said, as we all nod, before I press the record button on the camera in front of us.

Y/N'S POV

I feel like I'm going downhill. I feel like I'm losing myself and everyone around me. I've been really anxious lately, fidgeting constantly, overthinking and zoning out. I think I may have anxiety, because I've seen Matt both deal and struggle with it, and I have some of the same traits that he does.

I really wanted to be in their car video today, but I just felt really anxious, and I felt like everyone who would see the video would judge me. I mean, I've never like big or crowded spaces before, due to the fact that there are so many strangers who I don't know.

I think I might need to brush it off, I'm sure it's nothing. I'll deal with it myself.

Matt asked me if I wanted to be in the video, but I said that I was 'tired', which I don't think he believed, as I'm normally really energetic at that time, and I usually get excited to be in their videos. He dropped the subject and told me to rest, before leaving.

I was on my phone for a while, and I could feel my eyes slowly dropping, but before I could drift off, a hand on my shoulder woke me.

I looked over to see Matt crouched in front of my bed bed looking worried. "What's going on?" I asked groggily, sitting up slightly, as Matt moved to sit on the edge of my bed. "We're worried about you Y/N. You've been distant lately and zoning out a lot. Are you okay?" He whispered, and I hesitated. Just brush it off, you're fine.

"I'm fine, just homework and studying I guess." I replied. He looked sceptical for a moment. "Are you sure? You can talk to me sis." He said, and I rolled my eyes. "Yes, I'm fine Matt, can I sleep now?" I asked, with anger laced in my voice.

He nodded, with sadness in his eyes, before leaving my room.

Why did I get angry like that? I should've just told him. My strenuous overthinking caused me fall asleep rather quickly, and when I woke up again, it was light outside, and I had a message from my bestfriend.