A/N~This was requested by zenthegreatest, I hope you and everyone else likes it.
TW~Panic attack and anxiety.
Y/N'S POV
It's been around 2 months since my panic attack at that party with Y/F/N, and my brothers have been so helpful in their own ways.
Nick would always take me down to the ice cream shop whenever I felt anxious or had a panic attack. We'd then sit in the park for a bit and talk about random topics like his tattoos or my next exam at school. Nick promised he'd get a tattoo for me, so I've been brainstorming some ideas.
Matt would always help me through the toughest panic attacks, helping me take deep breaths, even when I felt like I couldn't. He recently bought me some anxiety rings for when I was at school, or doing a car video with them, and they really helped.
Chris and me were always childish and immature, so we would binge watch movies to take my mind off of things, or just have a crazy, energetic day out. The best day was going to a trampoline park with him and chilling in the foam pit.
My anxiety has been getting worse lately. Maybe it's because I would be joining Nick, Matt and Chris in the Versus Tour this year.
Yes, I'm excited for it, but I'm terrified of having a panic attack on stage where thousands are recording and judging me.
We're currently just chilling in the tour bus, waiting for the venue to officially open. We got here really early, and the venue doesn't open for another 4 hours.
I'm sitting in my small bunk bed with the curtain closed, trying to take deep breaths, as I fidgeted with my anxiety rings.
The thought of there being so many people just made me spiral more, which caused me to take shorter and more laboured breaths.
Before I knew it, I was having a full blown panic attack. Hands shaking, shortened breaths, and no way of calling out to my brothers.
Just then, my small curtain opened revealing a worried Matt.
"Hey Y/N, you're okay. Remember what I taught you." He spoke, as I breathed in for 4 seconds, and tried to hold it for 4 seconds, but I just couldn't.
"I-I c-can't Matt!" I cried, as he pulled me into his arms, rubbing my back gently. "Just focus on something else, like your rings. Keep trying to take deep breaths for me." He said, holding my hands, where I fiddled with my rings, whilst I rested against Matt.
"I'm proud of you Y/N, we'll get through this together." He whispered, as I nodded, doing the breathing technique that Matt taught me.
"Hey Y/N, how are you feeling?" Chris asked, with 2 ice creams in his hands, "I guess I'm okay now, thanks." I whispered, and then Nick joined us, with 2 more ice creams and gave me one of them.
"We found an ice cream parlour when me and Chris went out for a bit." Nick said, as I finally calmed down, enjoying the sweet taste of my ice cream.
We all chilled out for a while, eating our ice creams, before someone knocked on the bus door and then told us that the venue was open.
We grabbed our bags, and fans were swarming. I felt someone hold my hand, and I looked up to see Chris smiling down at me, which calmed my nerves a bit.
We went to different groups of fans, taking photos and signing stuff, before we made it to the green room.
"You okay Y/N? I know that was a lot of people." Nick asked, and I nodded, sitting in front of a vanity mirror and putting my team colour face paint on.
"Yeah, it was fine. Pretty excited for the show." I said, and the boys nodded, before Chris spoke up. "Me and you are going head to head in a game of basketball too." I stood up and face him. "Well, I'm gonna beat you easily." I declared, with my hands on my hips.
"Oh really? Winner gets top bunk in the tour bus." He stated, holding his hand out as I shook it. "You're on."
We spent another half an hour in the green room, before getting called to the stage, where I grabbed my microphone and Nick's hand.
"Ready?" He asked, "ready as I'll ever be." I replied, as the fans screamed our names, when we made our way onto the stage.
We had such a brilliant night, with many games, but it was Matt who won the night, and it was me who won the top bunk in the bus.
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