𝗬𝗼𝘂𝗧𝘂𝗯𝗲𝗿 𝗜𝗺𝗮𝗴𝗶𝗻𝗲𝘀 𝗕𝗼𝗼𝗸 𝗢𝗻𝗲

𑁍𝗦𝘁𝘂𝗿𝗻𝗶𝗼𝗹𝗼𝘀~𝗣𝗼𝗶𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝗢𝘂𝘁𑁍

A/N~This was requested by zenthegreatest, I hope you and everyone else likes it. Nick would never do this, it's just for the imagine.

TW~Yelling, swearing, breakdowns, hate, mentions of self harm, suicide and insecurities.

Y/N'S POV

I woke up today feeling like shit. My nose was blocked, my head was pounding and I started my period last night, so the cramps we stabbing me like knives.

I didn't want to get out of bed, but I had to because I was going out with Madi. Madi's my best friend and I've been spending a lot of time with her, which I didn't think annoyed anyone. But it did.

I got dressed and then went to the bathroom, doing my morning routine and taking some medicine/painkillers, before heading downstairs and grabbing breakfast.

Of course, the boys weren't up yet, so I was pretty bored whilst I was waiting for Madi. I was scrolling through Instagram, when I got a text from Madi, telling me that she was outside. 

I grabbed my bag and phone, then headed outside to Madi's car, where we greeted each other and then headed to the mall.

Time Skip

"Thanks for today Madi," I said as she pulled up to my house. "Don't worry girl, we should go to the cinema tomorrow, that new horror film is being shown!" I nod and grab my bags heading into my house.

It's been around four hours since I've left, so my brothers should be up now. I set my bags down on the floor by the kitchen counter, and I see Matt and Chris sitting there eating a sandwich of some sort, and then Nick comes in.

"Where'd you go this morning?" Nick asks, looking at my bags that I have with me.

"Well I'll have you know that me and Madi went to the mall, and me and her are going to the cinema tomorrow to watch that new horror movie." I state.

I see Nick roll his eyes and go to the fridge to get something to eat. "Wat was the eye roll for?" I ask, seeing Nick yet again roll his eyes and get a plate from the cupboard. "Hello?" I ask, waving my hand in front of his eyes, but he smacks it away.

"It's always 'oh me and Madi' or 'me and Madi are doing this tomorrow', it's like she's your sibling, not us!" He yells, and I flinch stepping back a bit.

"I do all of your videos with you, and I only see Madi a few times a month, I see you everyday. Maybe you should wake up earlier and spend time with me Nick!" I retaliate, feeling painful cramps appear in my stomach as my migraine gets worse.

"Whatever, clearly you never notice me in the house," I sigh walking away, giving an apologetic smile to Matt and Chris. They didn't really try and break it up, but what's the point, Nick would let it go soon. I head to the storage room cupboard to get medication for my cramps, but Nick still followed me.

"Where are you going now. With Madi?" Nick asks as I grab two pills. "No, I'm getting medication for my cramps and migraine." I said, getting annoyed.

I walk back into the kitchen and sit on one of the stools. "Are you sure?" He questions, "yeah." He doesn't believe me.

"Are you sure you're not trying to kill yourself? I saw your diary, you left it open on your bed this morning. And scars too." He said, and I felt offended, he read my diary. Tears formed in my eyes, and before I could speak up, Chris did.

"Nick, that's enough! Matt did you wanna take Y/N upstairs?" He asks, and Matt nods, holding his hand out to me - which I take - before taking me upstairs.

He sits me on my bed, closing my diary (without reading it), placing it on my beside table, and then crouching in front of me.

"Y/N?" Matt asks, taking one of my hands into his.

I couldn't even apologise. The only thing that came out was a broken sob as I put my head into my hands and broke down.

"Hey, it's okay. I'm here." Matt said, taking my hands away from my face and hugging me tight, making me put my head in the crook of his neck as I cried.

Matt rubbed my back slowly and ran his fingers through my hair, which helped me calm down.

"Why didn't you tell us Y/N?" He asked, pulling away from the hug and putting my head in between his hands, wiping away my tears.

"I-I didn't know what t-to do," I whispered, remembering how lost I was when I was sitting in the bathroom with slit wrists, and thinking about ending it all.

"It's gonna be okay Y/N, we're here for you." He said, giving me another hug, as I fully clamed down.

"Nick won't be," I sighed, feeling tears come back to my eyes.

"He will be, I don't know what got into him today, but he's gonna be there for you." Matt said reassuringly, and it gave me hope that he might apologise.

Just then, there was a knock at the door, revealing a guilty Nick.

"Can I talk to you Y/N?" He asked, and I nodded. Matt got up and left to go and see what Chris said to him, and then Nick took a seat beside me.

"I'm so fucking sorry Y/N. I don't know what got into me. I just miss you, and all I could see was you drifting away and going with Madi all of the time. I thought your diary was your songbook for your guitar, and I felt so guilty. I just really hope you can forgive me." He whispered, and I took his hand.

"It's gonna take some time Nick, it really hurt me. That day that you read in my diary, I felt so low, and I thought I had no one. But, I'm trying to get better, I promise." I said, feeling so much more hopeless.

"I know, I know. I'm here for you Y/N." He commented, as I leaned forward and hugged him. I felt a lot better than I have done these past few weeks, and I knew that I'd always have my brothers by my side.