might aswell be real- joão félix

cinquenta e dois

Joao's POV

That was hard. I wanted to forgive her and hug her and kiss her but I couldn't, I'm still not ready to talk to her. I didn't know what to think about her and that's why I need to talk to Cristiano before her.

40 minutes later

I walk to the cafe next to the hotel and see Cristiano sitting there, so I go and sit with him, "how are you?"

"I'm not really sure, I didn't sleep very well I was overthinking," I tell him honestly, I just want to know how she feels. And I know that's selfish of me but still.

"I'd say that's normal but I have no clue what happened." I can tell he's just trying to lighten the mood but I'm really not feeling it right now.

"how are you?" I ask. No matter how much tension there is and how many problems I have I'll always be nice enough to ask that question.

"I'm fine, but I'm worried about her." He says instantly, he's worried about her almost as much as I am, "she feels like she needs to go back into rehab, she was taking drugs again."

My heart dropped hearing this. I know how hard it was for her to stop taking them and the trauma it brings so to hear she's going back, I start blaming myself. What happened? Was it because of me? "What? Is she okay?"

He shrugs his shoulders, "she was looking after the kids while me and Gio went out and when we came back we saw them on the couch. We took it before she went too far but she did break up into tears after, we made sure she didn't leave our room though."

I release a deep breath that I didn't even know I was holding, "thank god she's okay, was it my fault?"

"she said it wasn't and to be fair I think she's telling the truth." So at least I know I didn't cause this. I would've never been able to forgive myself if I had. "I know she was upset about whatever happened but overall she was fine, so I think it was more than just that."

I nod my head relieved, "okay."

Cristiano's POV

"so what happened then?" I ask. I want to be able to help them both but without knowing what happened I don't know what to do.

"well Davi was talking to her yesterday well talking isn't the right word more like harassing. At first, I thought I should let them talk so I didn't do anything but then when I saw him trying to touch her when she clearly didn't want that, I went up to them. I tried being as nice as possible I introduced myself and then he brought up a kid," he tells me. I'm not surprised about that though he has a tendency of being aggressive I saw that even when they were dating before things got bad.

"who's kid?" I ask, that's the only thing I'm confused about.

"their kid," he says as if it's obvious but that's news to me since when did they have a kid? "but he must not know anything about it because he didn't know the gender or the name and he wanted to meet it."

That's when it crosses my mind. The miscarriage. The miscarriage that no one was supposed to know about apart from her, me, Gio and Jr so how the fuck did he know unless it was supposed to happen. I'm mad now, I knew the guy was crazy but I didn't know he was a maniac. 

Everything that I'm thinking may have been showing on my face cause Joao looks at me confused. "Are you okay?"

"you said a kid, their kid," I'm really trying to make sure that's what they are talking about because I don't want to get my facts mixed up.

"yeah, you know about it right?" I feel bad I can't help Joao right now, I know all he wants is consolation but I can't give that to him right now.

"do you have a name?" I ask him, my brain is turning in my head right now at full speed.