might aswell be real- joão félix

cinquenta e sete

Right now me and Joao are sitting next to each other on a flight back to Spain. I can't stay there for very long but I will stay for a while before I get back to England and start up music again. I'm worried about me and Joao though. I've never had to do long distance before, what if it doesn't work out. Joao puts his hand on mine giving me a concerned look but I don't want him to think I have no faith in our relationship.

"you okay?" I nod my head securely.

"do you know where you're going next?" I ask Joao, trying to distract myself from my thoughts.

"not yet no, for now I go back to Atletico but I'm not worried about being there for long," he's so confident I wish I didn't worry about everything that happens in my life.

He kisses me out of nowhere, "thank you for getting me further."

"huh?" He's speaking in riddles, not that he ever makes sense but now he is just making noise.

"we may not have made it far in the tournament but I wouldn't have even had the courage to do any of it without you and I'm forever grateful to have you in my life." He says all this like it's not the most heart warming thing ever.

"it's all you, I just remind you about what you already have." There are tears in my eyes because I honestly don't know what I did to deserve him. 

"can I tell you something?" He mumbles in response. "I thought after Davi, that I deserved everything he did to me. I lost all self-respect and I though I was completely worthless, even when I got back from rehab, I thought I'd never find love again, I was scared. But when I met you, I knew you were different, you reminded me of the good in life. You proved to me that I'm worthy and for that I'm forever grateful so thank you Joao."

"amor, it's just like you said, I was just reminding you of what you already have." I hug him, I don't know what I'd do without  him. He chuckles, "but honestly you've changed my life for the better and I don't think I would be here without you, and you're family also make me feel comfortable. I know we only met because of a stupid arrangement but it meant I got to meet you so I have no regrets. I won't lie I thought you were a bit full of yourself when we first met.

I giggle, "me. Full of myself why would you think that?" I'm normally just quiet and introverted with people I don't know, so I don't know what gave him that mindset.

"the fact you wouldn't tell me your name and you were sarcastic with me, then when I found your Instagram and you had so many followers I just assumed you were like everyone else," he says and we both start laughing.

"that's so dumb you were the one who called me blind, who the hell says that to someone?" I joke with him.

"don't blame me, who wears sunglasses inside?" He defends himself, chuckling. He's clearly never been followed around bad enough yet. We should go out together in England and show our faces he'll experience it then.

"I'm a millionaire, I didn't want to be seen!" I argue my case back to him, laughing. "How easy life is for some low life celebrities."

"a millionaire huh? Low life celebrities. Maybe you are full of yourself," he says smirking at me. He used to be so quiet and normal, I don't know who gave him all that confidence.

"I told you Barcelona don't pay you enough, you used to be a millionaire," we both start laughing hysterically. After a few minutes though we finally calm down.

"do you know when you get back to England?" He asks ending our jokes. I can tell he wants to sleep but my overthinking is stopping him.

"I'm not in a rush I just want to spend as much time with you as possible for now," I give him a smile which he returns.

"sounds great," he yawns. How can he be so natural right now?

"are you not even the tiniest bit worried about long distance?" I ask genuinely confused at they way he is acting.

"It will work out because I love you and you love me," he says putting his head on mine closing his eyes.

"you're right." I nod, whatever happens everything will be fine because we'll face it together. I close my eyes and we both fall asleep.

AND CUT. its done guys, shit ending I know but I am thinking of doing a sequel to this book to show their long distance relationship so please lmk if you'd want that.

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