ODDS OF LOVE : SEASON EIGHT

Episode 40

" Tell me more about your feelings for your mother Doris," Lynn said as her shrewd dark eyes examined the tense pallid face of her client as he sat in his chair with his hands suddenly gripping his armrests tightly.

Spencer said through gritted teeth," I don't like to discuss that woman. She tried to have my husband killed and she used me as an excuse. Because DuBuis didn't want me to have an operation to remove a bullet he said would kill me if removed. He is a doctor. I trust his judgement in everything in life. I trust him with my life. Why didn't she? " He punched the armrest once. " She does not love me. She didn't do it out of love. She never loved me. She considers me her property. Her intelligent property. She put a wedge between me and my siblings growing up. She made Lorraine hate me. I thought Richard hated me too but now I am not sure. Of course she has turned against him too. Because he supports DuBuis and myself. And because he came out as bisexual and chose Nigel. What is wrong with her? Nigel is the only good person he has ever been with. Sarah was annoying. I know she's dead but she was still annoying when alive. And she cheated on him which means Rebecca is not his biological daughter. I know Nigel believes that test was wrong but DNA doesn't lie. She hurt my brother. And Beverly was just so awful. She was like the wicked witch in the Wizard of Oz movie. The one with Judy Garland. Nigel has never hurt him. He takes care of Richard. " He stopped talking and ran his hands over his face in one sudden move. " I'm having nightmares about her. It was once the shooting but they stopped. Then Skip. I still get them but now it's her. "

Lynn asked," What happens in the nightmares, Spencer? "

" She tells me I'm not really smart. She tells me nobody can ever love me like she does. That DuBuis will leave me for another man who can actually have sexual relations. She says.... that I will be alone forever. No DuBuis. No Luci. No Theodore. No Dad. No Glory. No Richard. She says nobody can love me. "

A single tear slid from his blue eye behind his horn rimmed glasses and he sniffed in embarrassment.

The therapist handed him the box of tissues from her desk and he took one. He removed his glasses and swiped at his face with the tissue. Then put the glasses back on.

" You know that is not true. I've seen you with your family. They all seem to love you very much. Keep telling yourself that. Every day tell yourself that. They love you and will never leave you. " She paused briefly. " Have you considered confrontation with your mother in these dreams? Have you spoken to her in these dreams? "

Spencer laughed bitterly. " No. I don't even want to talk to her in real life. Not anymore. I just want the dreams to end. She has no rights to my mind when I sleep. "