Time goes by so fast, but our memories do last..

Goodbyes

Goodbyes (Chapter Twenty-Five)

I was speechless… Harry sent me that text just after we’ve said goodbye and seriously, it made me feel sad. I thought to the day we met in the restaurant and the way he was looking at me. I just went in the bathroom to join Lace. I wanted to show her the text he has just sent me, but I didn’t. She had all her things going on with Calum and she had enough thinking with Niall so I just put it back in my purse and pretended that he didn’t send it.

-      Are you okay Bella? I asked Lace entering the bathroom.

-      Yeah I’m fine. She answered dryly to me.

She never speaks to me like this even if she wants to hide something from me. Usually I just resign myself and don’t ask any more about her feeling but this was way more different… with was about Niall and her feelings for him and Calum and it is very complicated and she has to talk about it, I know it.

-      Lace you can’t hide this from me. I said putting my hand on her back to show that I’m here for her. I know there is something wrong and it has to do with Niall, I saw how you looked at him a few minutes ago and you never talk to me this way… you know you can trust me. I will never say a single word to either Calum or Ashton or anyone about this.

-      I am sorry lovey, but I feel a little bit guilty that I want so bad to cry for Niall and that after that I won’t feel the same way saying goodbye to Calum. She replied letting a tears scroll down her cheek.

-      Don’t worry about that, Niall is a friend and Calum is your boyfriend, sometime it happens that we will miss something more than another, but Calum is your boyfriend now and you know you will see him again or talk to him quite often, but Niall… you don’t know when you will see or talk to him again so it is normal you feel sadder. I felt the exact same way saying goodbye to Harry and this point of view made me feel better about the situation.

-      Yeah… I guess you are right about this one. She replied smiling a little bit.

-      We’ll dry your tears and we will head back to the boys to tell them goodbye…

-      Alright! She answered taking a tissue from her purse. I just wanted to thank you Mary…

-      What about? I ask wondering.

-      About going to the bathroom, I wouldn’t have stand in front of Calum after my goodbye with Niall.

-      There is nothing, I felt like you needed some times to get well and I think I needed it too.

We headed to the loge to meet up with the boys for one last time. All the way back to the loge, Lace and I held hands… it is because we like girl but we do that sometimes when we are in a crowded place or just when we need to feel that we are here for each other, like when we’re sad.

 As we entered the room, the boys were waiting for us standing a few tears in their eyes. Seeing them like this made me feel very sad. Finally I would feel the same way than with Harry and maybe sadder than with him, after all Ash is my boyfriend and I love him…

We went straight to Michael and Luke to wish them all the goods in the future and hug them goodbye. After, I went to see Calum and Lace to Ashton.

-      Take care of her Mary. Asked Calum as he let a tear down from his eye.

-      Of course I will, she’s my best friend and the best sister I’ll ever have, I will never let her down. I replied giving him a hug to make him feel better. Take care of you and of all the boys. I will miss you Cal, you’re a great man.

-      I will miss you too Mary. He replied as we pulled back from our hug.

I left Calum to go see Ashton and let him with his girlfriend aka Lace Morgan. I approached Ashton and I could feel the rush in my body that just wanted to cry.

-      I am sorry that I look like this at the last time you see me for a little while… I said looking to the ground.

-      Whenever you are sad or happy the only thing that I’ll remember is my lovely girlfriend and her wonderful smile. He replied putting his hand on my chin to make me look in his deep blue eyes for the last time. Where ever we are in the world you will stay my girl and I will always love you from the bottom of my heart. He said kissing me on the forehead.

-      I love you so much Ashton! I replied letting a tear scrolling on my cheek. I will miss you so much love. Please write me whenever you can.

As I pronounced those words my heart started to beat even faster than when I could think it could. He took me in a huge hug that lasted forever.

-      Goodbye my girl. He said letting at his turn a few tears from his eyes. Can I kiss you one last time? He asks looking straight into my eyes.

-      You know you never have to ask for this. I answered smiling.

He approached me from his warm body for the last time and we kissed for the last time probably in a few months. This kiss, I will always remember it. It was the sweetest of all the one he gave me. It was sweet, gentle but at the same time passionate a little bit wild, it was just the perfect kiss of all time. My hands were laying on his shoulder while his were gently grabbing my waist. He softly pulled back and looked at me with his shinning blue eyes, since he has been crying his eyes had a wonderful colour, and told me one last sentence that touches me more than I could think.

-      I love you more than you can ever think, I just want you to remember that every time of the day. You will always be my girl. To Infinity and Beyond, like you told me the other day.

-      I will always remember that babe! Never forget that I love you as much as you do love me.

I closed my eyes to let a few tears out and hug him tight one last time before leaving with Lace for the hotel.