TMR/TBS Imagines

Newt // Misunderstanding (Pt.2)

* I was just having a bad day when I wrote this so there is a warning at the end for self harm. Don't read if it might trigger you! *

I haven't had a real conversation with any one here since the thing with newt and Teresa five weeks ago. I wake up in a hammock Alby graciously gave me, eat there, run alone in the maze, eat in my hammock again, and go back to sleep. A system that no one has dared break.

I could see the boys looking at me. I could see the sympathy as well as the judgmental looks they're giving me, but I ignored them to the best of my ability. I told Teresa seven simple words the day afterwards and left it at that: 'you didn't do it to hurt me'. I hadn't spoken to Newt at all.

I would answer of course when Minho or Thomas asked me about the maze or answer Alby's question always with 'I'm fine'. I never told anyone anything other than that. I didn't need to. I didn't want to. I felt so empty and alone but I also liked it. I didn't have to fulfill anyone's expectations of me. I did my work and then I disappeared without another thought. It was fine.

I was coming back from grabbing food after giving my 'thank you' nod to Fry, when I looked over at Newt for a split second. When I did, I happened to not look where I was going. A second later, my face hit a tree hard.

I stumbled back with my hand over my face. I could feel the blood trickle from it and it throbbed as well. Quickly, hands were on my waist to spin me around. I was fool for thinking for a spilt second Newt was the one to help me. It was Gally.

"Hey (Y/N). Let me take you to the medjacks," he said shaking me a little. The pain in my nose made my eyes water so I couldn't really make anything out except what was right in front of me.

I began laughing- something I hadn't done in weeks. He looked frightened for a second. "My nose probably looks like yours."

"It's not nice to make fun of my potato nose," he laughed too and took the tray from my hand. "Really though. Sit down."

He helps guide me to the table beside us and put my food back in front of me. We talked for a while. It felt unbelievably nice to speak to someone about something other than the maze. I felt like myself again.

Newt's POV

I couldn't feel any worse than I do right now. When Teresa said someone liked me, I assumed she meant herself so I decided to lean in. Then she freaked out saying it wasn't her who liked me after seconds of kissing. I didn't know (Y/N) liked me or else I wouldn't have kissed Teresa, but she was giving me mixed signals when she kissed back.

(Y/N) hadn't spoken to any of us in weeks and I knew it was my fault. Well half my fault but regardless, mine. I didn't want to hurt. I never knew it would hurt her. She's such an amazing girl and I never wanted her in pain especially when it was my fault.

Everyone assures me it isn't my fault but (Y/N) just being a hormonal girl but that only makes me yell at them about making boys a little hesitant to talk to me. I ruined a lot of things by kissing Teresa.

Teresa's cried to me for hours saying (Y/N) won't forgive her. She's also explained how (Y/N) liked me. How she used to try to impress me, how she was worried she didn't look as beautiful as Teresa and how she talked about me. Now she hasn't spoken at all.

I was sitting at dinner with Minho and Ben talking about mindless things but my eyes were on (Y/N). She had her head low and was walking with her food to her hammock like she did every day now. She suddenly looked back at me before colliding into a tree.

I jumped up and went to help her but Gally quickly whoever himself in front of me. He turned to me and growled, "you've done enough."

He ran over to her and helped her with her bloody nose. She then began laughing. Oh my god, she was laughing! No one had even seen her smile in weeks!