Why Can't It Be?

Her Song

Sneak peek in You First Believed.

This will be WCIB's prequel. 90% of the chapters will be Jan's POV.

I have not decided yet whether to update it here as a new story or will add these chapters to WCIB if ever I decide to self publish again.

No final decisions yet. So for now, eto muna. Enjoy. 😊💙

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[Jan]

Maaga kameng nag pack up sa taping ngayong araw. Pabalik na ako sa tent ko para na rin makapag bihis at makauwi. Hinihintay na kasi ako ni Kuya Hero sa sasakyan.

Weekend na at wala naman akong trabaho bukas ng buong araw. Sa Sunday may trabaho ulit. Mag guguest ako sa ASP. I was told to do a dance prod.

Hindi talaga ako sumasayaw kaso wala rin akong magagawa kung yun ang gusto nila. Kung sana pakantahin na lang nila ako baka mas okay pa.

Kasama ko pa naman si Camilla sa dance prod na yon. Magaling siyang sumayaw. Sa sobrang galing madalas ko minamali ang steps para umulit kame ng umulit. Para mas matagal ko siyang makitang sumayaw.

I remembered last week sa rehearsal. Kulang na lang singhalan niya ako dahil sa daming beses namin inulit ang choreo. I secretly enjoyed every minute of it but I could not say the same thing for Camilla.

Cute pa din siya kahit umiirap at nagtataray. My growing crush on her seems to go deeper and deeper.

Minsan naiisip ko ng may gawin dito sa nararamdaman ko. Gusto ko ng magparamdam  at manligaw sa kanya pero pag nandiyan na siya, umuurong lahat ng lakas ng loob ko.

She has this effect on me that I can don't have a word for.

Magkatabi ang tent namin ni Camilla sa set. Ang alam ko ay kanina pa sila nakaalis dahil narinig ko si Ate Julie na nagpapaalam sa lahat. Si Ate Julie ang PA ni Camilla na madalas kong makabiruan na rin.

I was walking towards my tent when I accidentally heard something as I passed by.

Nung una mga strums lang ng gitara ang naririnig ko. It immediately got my attention.

Bilang marunong din akong mag gitara, sigurado akong tama ang pagkakatugtog niya. Nasa tono.

I didn't want to be creepy standing outside someone else's tent to eavesdrop. Mamaya mapagkamalan pa akong naninilip sa kanya, mahirap na.

So I decided to continue where I was going but then I could not take another step from where I was standing when someone started to sing.

"How many times did I prayed you'd find me."

Agad akong kinilabutan ako. Tinignan ko ang sarili kong braso at nanayo ng tunay ang mga balahibo ko sa katawan.

Ang lamig ng boses, ang sarap pakinggan.

Bumalik ako kung saan ako galing kanina at dinikit ang tenga sa manipis na tabla na nagsisilbing pintuan. 

"How many wishes on a star,
Gazing off into the dark
Dreaming I'd see your face
Safe at home unafraid
Captured in your embrace..." it was the sweetest voice I've heard my whole life. My heart started to beat crazy. Her voice made me excited.

She paused and I was literally holding my breath. Hindi ako humihinga sa kinatatayuan ko habang nag aabang ako sa susunod na lyrics ng kantang hindi pamilyar sa pandinig ko.

I haven't heard the song before. No, I have never heard any one sing like that before. Punong puno ng puso ang pagkanta niya.

"So many times
When my heart was broken
Visions of you
Would keep me strong
You were with me all along
Guiding my every step
You are all that I am
And I'll never forget..."

Hindi ko na napigilan at sumilip ako sa maliit na awang ng pintuan. I knew it was her but it was a lot different when my eyes confirmed my guess.

"It was you who first believed
In all that I was made to be
It was you looking in my eyes
You held my hand
And showed me life
And I've never been the same
Since you first believed..." she sang it like an art painted to perfection.

I saw Camilla strumming the guitar on her lap. Bare faced in her plain white shirt and denim shorts. Her hair was falling on her face, slightly hiding her eyes.

Gustong gusto kong hawiin ang buhok niyang yon para makita ko ang mukha niyang maganda. She was prettier now more than ever. In her simplicity, I got to know who she was underneath.

"There were times
When I'd thought I'd lost you
Fearing forever was a dream
But it wasn't what it seemed..." she paused then reaching for a notebook before her. Noon ko lang napansin na may sinusulat pala siya.

She's writing the words, the lyrics of the song. Ibig sabihin original composition niya ang kantang tinutugtog. Lumapad ang ngiti ko sa di ko malamang kadahilanan.

Hindi ko alam ano ang tawag sa pakiramdam na iyon pero huli na ng malaman kong kilig ang tamang tawag doon.

"Placing your hand in mine
You could see in the dark
You were guiding my heart..." Camilla continued with the same sweet angelic voice.

"It was you who first believed
In all that I was made to be
It was you looking in my eyes
You held my hand
And you showed me life
And I've never been the same
Since you first believed..." hindi ko na alintana kung nay makakita sa akin doon sa labas ng tent ni Camilla. Hindi ko mapigilan ang sarili kong pakinggan siya.

"How many times did I pray
You'd find me
How many wishes on a star..." she repeated the first verse and ended the song.

Kulang na lang ay magpalakpak ako sa labas ng tent niya buti na lang napigilan ko kundi baka pag lumapit siya mayakap ko siya.

I like Camilla. Very much.

I'm afraid I am liking her more and more each day that I think this isn't just liking someone anymore. I am starting to feel crazy, I am starting to fall for her and I willingly
want to fall even more.
.
.
.
Nakaupo ako ngayon sa kama ko at akap akap ang sariling gitara.

Hindi mawala sa isip ko si Camilla and how her voice just gave me chills earlier. I settled the guitar on my lap and started strumming. Random notes. Trying to fit my mood with tunes.

I took a piece of paper and tried filling words over the tune I just played.

I scribbled words that spontaneously came out off my mind. I was thinking of Camilla entirely.

"You came along, unexpectedly
I was doing fine in my little world
Oh baby please don't get me wrong
'Cause I'm not complaining
But you see, you got my mind spinning..." I stopped writing it down and tried it with a tune.

I was aware that loving her was a big leap for someone like me and I wasn't sure I was even worthy of her.

It seemed to me like she was a risk I could not afford. I knew I did not have a chance.

"Why can't it be...why can't it be the two of us..." I stopped.

I felt that pang in my chest knowing there is someone Camilla was writing her song about.

I wanted to be that person. That very reason behind her song.