Ghost Part I: The Haunting
I am afraid of this haunting,
I don’t want it.
When I came back to a house
I did not know.
They haunt these antique things, ether spirits that live like vapors
And turning my head and stomach they conjure to me weird smells
My mind turns to thoughts and words I never knew I had had
They twist me and I cannot breathe, thinking of the immortal
The real, the unreal, and that is you. You that hang around me.
Was it drowning, or fire, or hanging, did the noose tighten round
Your neck? I loved you back when I did not feel love, when I did not feel.
Back in when my brain made no full thoughts and all was mist.
Seeing now those places again crystal clear makes me pause.
Yet
You
Are
That
Mist
This clock of mine does hold within its heart/sphere
A sort of natural proclivity to hold these relics.
You are just that. A bone, a skull, a skeleton
That lives within my thought and without
As I know from all attempt to believe
Not in your existence. But it’s true
That you haunt sharp bends in
the road. There I am prone
to feel pangs of. I know
Not what. Emotion
Comes and goes
In waves. It
hurts so
always.
Til
I
Tell
Myself
That you are
Never going to hurt
Me again, Though I know
this to be a lie. Help me please
I reach to a mortal foe in this case
Perhaps you will not aid me in my un
clear endeavor. I would naught but see
In truth why. Yet I feel a sort of connection
To you. Being in me you know my every thought
And desire, and suffering, and secret, and all things
of importance deep within my tormented soul. You are
my god in that respect, an eternal watchman of equal fairness
and foulness. Benevolence and wrath. Each matched within you.
Should I attempt at the end of my days
To call out to you and rid myself
You are a beast! A monster! An unholy
Unrighteous thing! I would laugh
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The Collected Poetry
PoetryPoetry published May 2012- May 2013 (Written 2003-2013) Dedicated to my sister, those who followed in Viper's footsteps, and America.