Her Keeper

Chapter 44

--Julliet Morrison--

"Come on baby. Let's give you a bath." I cooed to a fussy Guilia. "Oh baby, I miss Daddy too. You don't have to make me feel bad about it." I pouted playfully as I picked her up and kissed her chubby cheeks. "Mommy had to leave. Her and Daddy aren't in the best place, baby."

After I gave Guilia her bath and breastfed her, I put her down to sleep as I cleaned up myself.

As I absentmindedly brushed my teeth, I thought of my relationship with Geovanni. It is such a rollercoaster and I feel like someone proned to motion sickness. It always feels like I'm the one coming off of the ride cometely dizzy and throwing up on myself, while he holds my hair back and offers physical support to keep me from falling.

Leaving him was by far the hardest thing I found myself doing, but the truth is, we both needed time to heal. He needed time to heal from what I had done to him and now I needed the same.

Maybe it was a big mistake chasing after him when he left me. I should've allowed us some time. Time to grow. Time to heal. Time to mend.

I mean isn't it obvious that it's the reason why he kept holding out from making us official again? His trust is broken. We are both hurt. Our love is tainted. I chose to leave, not because I have given up, but because Geovanni seems to have given up. Isn't that why he began seeing someone else anyway? And if he isn't seeing someone, he sure is fucking them.

Rinsing my mouth and putting away my toothbrush, I observed my red, puffy eyes in my mirror. I looked horrible. I felt horrible. I dried my face and exited my bathroom.

"So you're just going to up and leave me and not say anything?" Geovanni was casually sitting on my bed with his elbows on his knees and his head in his palms, which startled the fuck out of me.

"We weren't together, Geo." I calmly replied.

Removing his head from his hand and his elbows from his knees, he stood up and stalked his way over to me.

"We weren't together?" He scoffed. "You were living in my house, weren't you?" He yelled as he beat his chest. "You were sleeping in my goddamn bed, weren't you?" He grabbed my wrists and shook me a bit. "We made love over and over, didn't we?" His voice cracked as his eyes held my gaze. "Didn't we, Julliet?" His irises darted back and forth across my blank, expressionless face. "I came home to you every night. Didn't I?" His lips began quivering and his face took on a gentle hue of red. "How the fuck you gon' stand here and tell me that we weren't together!" He yelled. "Answer me, Jules!"

"You should just go, Geo." I whispered.

"Why the fuck did you even leave me?" He demanded.

"Geo, just go." I repeated. "Please?"

"You just gon' give up on me huh?" He sniffled. "Give up on us?" He pulled his lower lip into his mouth as a few tears escaped his eyes. "You're not even going to tell me what the fuck's wrong?"

"I'm sure you've long figured it out."

"So that's just it?" He stuttered through his trembling lips. "No talking it out?" The pity in his eyes, caused me to look away from him. "No working shit out?" He continued as his face became wetter and wetter from the ceaseless tears. "You're just going to throw the baby out with the bathwater?"

"You threw it out Geo!" I yelled, unable to take it anymore. "You kept me at home and fucked on me whenever you felt like it while you still went out and entertained someone else!"

"You fucked that nigga a while back and I still let you back in and you can't do the same for me?"

"I never fucked him!" I defended. "Besides, you kept me around for the benefits, Geo. Let's be real."

"Benefits?" He questioned. "What the hell are you even talking about?"

"You kept me around for the sex and whatever the fuck else you needed fufilled."

"You sound so damn stupid right now." He scoffed. "If I wanted a bitch to fuck whenever I felt like it, I could find one anywhere. What the fuck are you really trying to say?"

"Do you even love me?"

"If I didn't, you wouldn't have been living in my house much less, sleeping in my bed. I wouldn't have bought a building with your ass. I wouldn't have bought us a house—"

"House?" I questioned in confusion.

"Yeah. A house." He sighed. "I went ahead and paid money to secure a bigger, more convenient place for us." He began tearing up. "If I didn't love you Julliet, I would've never let you back into my life after all that bullshit with your punk ass ex." He paused. "But I love you, so I-I ignored the hurt and betrayal I felt, so you wouldn't feel like a complete fuck up." He shook his head. "I love you so I swallowed my pride and bruised my ego for your ass and you ain't thought for a second to do it for me."

"I never asked you to—"

"That's not the point!" He cut me off. "What am I supposed to do with a four bedroom, three bathroom house, Julliet?" He yelled. "What am I supposed to do when I signed over all the rights for the café to you?" He swallowed at whatever he thought was lodged in his oesohegus. "What the fuck am I supposed to do with this fuck you ass stunt you pulled after all that shit I done did for you?" He scoffed. "And you still want me to prove my love for you?"

"What do you expect me to say?"

He shook his head. "I made a mistake. I didn't intend for it to turn out like that, but sometimes shit happens. I ain't mean to fuck her. We were just on some friendly shit and other shit happened."

"You still got caught up and fucked her, Geovanni and you came home and couldn't even make love to me!"

"As soon as I cummed and came to my senses, I walked away from her because I didn't want her to be a problem for us. Something that you never did. You cheated with that nigga and still went back to him while you were carrying my child, Julliet. You had him around you, while you were carrying my child. You want me to prove that I love you so bad, but what about me? Why won't you prove your love for me? Why is it that every time you're supposed to, you never do?" By now every vien beneath the skin which made up Geo's forehead were pretruding. "You wanna know if I love you so bad, but do you love me?"

"Of course I love you!" I defended. "And I keep telling you that nothing happened between Alexis and I."

"Yet, we're here huh? Having this conversation? When you invited yourself back into my house, I never thought once to tell your ass to dip. I allowed you, because as much as I wanted to front like I ain't cared, I would've died inside without you around. I'm always the one compromising the way I feel to make sure you're happy, but you could never do the same for me. Maybe this all just goes to how whose love has conditions hidden in fine print. Maybe I've just learnt that I'm the one with the unrequited love." In that moment, I saw something in Geo's eyes die. "Don't bother contacting me if it has nothing to do with our daughter, Julliet. You just do you."

All I could do was gaze after him as he left me. All I could do was let him leave me. And after he was gone, I broke.

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I almost cried.

...Almost.

As usual I didn't edit.

~Dolly