Her Keeper

Chapter 94

--Julliet Morrison--

"Oh God, Geovanni."I cried out as my orgasm took over. My legs shook violently and I squirmed around as I rode out my high. I opened my eyes and removed the now drenched rubber toy from my core.

Everytime I masturbated, I thought of the times we had. I've tried porn, but it doesn't work and I am not ready to go out and find myself someone new as yet.

I was still very much unsatisfied because there was no one to hold on to, no one kissing on me, no one to go down on me, no one to whisper sweet things to. It was just me and the rubber substitute.

I got out of bed and headed for the shower, turning it on and washing myself. I closed my eyes as unwanted thoughts filled my vision.

--Geovanni Parris--

"You look a mess." Elliott said as he entered my house.

"Thanks." I nodded.

"How ya' feeling, man?" He questioned, causing me to shrug.

"I'm cool."

"You lying, but ok." He laughed and bit. "You're high too." He assumed.

"I'm not high." I truthfully corrected.

"Then wh- ohh." He trailed off as realization dawned on him. "You're cooped up in here crying, but it's not going to solve anything, Geo." He advised.

"I know." I shrugged.

"Let's go play ball or something, man."

"I don't want to." I declined. "I just want to be left alone."

"Julliet said to tell you to stop acting like this." He tried it.

"She don't give a fuck about me." I shrugged.

"She didn't tell me that in a real, but she cares about you, man. Pull yourself together. You made a mistake, she couldn't handle anymore pressure, you both went your separate ways, move on."

"She went her separate way!" I snapped. "Not me." My voice cracked.

"So why'd you sign the papers?" He asked. "Why didn't you do what she did when you filed for a divorce?" He asked.

"Because she actually looks happier without me." I shrugged. "I just gave her what she wants. Like I always do."

"That's one thing that's true about you. You always gave her, her way."

"She's happy isn't she?" I asked.

"I don't know, Geo, but she's trying her best to get through it." He shrugged. "Why don't you just ask her?"

"She don't wanna see me." I sniffled.

"What exactly were you thinking about to be up in here crying like that?"

"All I could think about is howuch I fucked up and lost the best thing that's ever happened to me."

"What about your kids?" He questioned. "Ain't they the best?"

"If I didn't have her, I wouldn't have them." I sniffled again. "So it still stands."

"When you had that dance with her at me and Thalia's wedding, why didn't you say something to her?" He asked. "Everybody knew you that were dying to."

"She wouldn't want to hear it and our divorce came through the day before."  I explained.

"She was dying to say something as well, Geo."

"How'd you know?" I asked.

"She told Thalia that you didn't even care anymore."

"How could she say that, when she's the one avoiding me. She doesn't even want me to have her number, Elliott."