Her Keeper

Chapter 58

--Julliet Parris--

I watched as Geovanni packed his bag and as much as I wanted to cry, I couldn't. I felt everything, but I still felt nothing.

Geo decided to move out for a bit, until I come around. Krystal would still stay with me, because he doesn't want me to distrust him any further.

Don't leave me!

There is so much I wanted to say to him, but all I usually did was get lost in my own thoughts as I stared blankly.

I'm not mad at him anymore. I'm not even sure what the hell is wrong with me. I guess I'm just jealous. Krystal and I have become a bit closer, but I still couldn't help my jealousy.

I was newly married and had to share my husband already goddamnit!

"Where are you going to go?" I even surprised myself with the question. He froze and looked up at me before clearing his throat.

"At Elliott's." I nodded.

"Ok." I mumbled.

"Yeah." He continued packing his bag in silence as I looked on.

After he was finished, he hugged Guilia tightly and told her he'd be gone for a bit. She looked so confused, but didn't really question it.

"I'll miss you, Daddy." She pouted.

"I'll miss you too, baby." He offered her a smile. "I love you." He said before kissing all over her face.

"I love you too, Daddy." She giggled.

Placing Lia back on her feet, he grabbed the bag he'd packed and turned toward me.

"Call if you ever need anything." He said, causing me to nod.

"I'd probably be calling mostly for Kyrs." I told him. He huffed and shook his head.

"Cool. Later."

"Bye." I mumbled, feeling tears sting my eyes, but I've mastered the art of holding them back.

Stay. We'll talk and have make up sex and... Tell me you love me.

I kept finding it hard to voice my feelings.

Why couldn't I just tell him?

"I love you." He whispered as he passed by me, stopping to press a kiss to my cheek.

I grabbed his hand and looked up at him. He stared back down at me, waiting for me to say something, I guess. I was hurt, but I didn't want him to go. I was hurt and I didn't want to talk, but I definitely didn't want him to leave.

He came home at the end of the days and it was enough for me. If he goes, he's not going to come home at all. Whose breathing will I listen to at night? Who will I fix breakfast for in the morning? Who's going to leave me little notes on post-it paper where only I would find them? Who's going to sing to me at night when they think I'm asleep? Who's going to make Guilia breakfast when they think I'm too tired to be woken up so early?

Geovanni may not be the most affectionate man in the world, but he loves me. Of all the women he's been with... He married me. He doesn't exactly like people, that's why he's had so many just flings kind of relationships, but I'm the most difficult of them all and I'm his wife.

"I have to go." He pulled his hand out of mine and left.

Going downstairs behind him, I stood at the kitchen window as I watched him back out of the driveway and left.

"He can't read minds, you know." Krystal's voice startled me as my head snapped toward her sitting at the island. "He may be your hero in many ways, but he doesn't have those kinds of powers." She continued.

"I know." I mumbled.

"And you still expected him to know what you think and feel?" She questioned. "Sit down."

I sat next to her like she asked and gave her my attention.

"He's always said that's his biggest issue with you. You like to shut down and shut him out. Geovanni doesn't care about anybody much, but he cares for you and that's a whole lot of care, because the only other two people who have it are probably just your father and your child. He doesn't share his care, so it's alot to give." She chuckled, making me chuckle.

"I guess." I shrugged.

"So what's up?" She asked. "How do you feel?"

"Horny." I replied honestly making the both of us laugh.

"And apart from that?"

"I just... The truth is, I'm not even mad anymore. I mean, he said he wasn't ready for a child, it's not like he said he didn't want one at all and it's only fair because you're already having one. I was just jealous that you're having the baby I wanted and I guess I was upset because when he wanted a baby, we weren't using any type of birth control and that's how we ended up with Guilia, but when I want one and he doesn't I'm using pills to prevent it happening. Do you think that if I'd been popping piss when he wanted a child he'd be ok with it? He'd be pissed. He'd say I was selfish. I just feel like some things are one sided when it comes to us. It's either his way or his way." I shrugged.

"Did you tell him that?"

"No." I replied honestly.

"You don't think he'd understand if you do?"

"It's going to be a fight first."

"And you don't wanna fight?" She correctly assumed.

"Right."

"You two are so cute it's funny. He's afraid of losing you and you're afraid of losing him too. He threw out your pills to make you happy and your not talking about your feelings because you want to avoid the confrontation and you don't want to lose him." She giggled. "It's cute."

"It's not that damn funny." I mugged her.

"He's eventually going to do what you want, because he want you to be happy and he doesn't want to lose you. It's the advantage you have girl so stop acting like you don't know." She smirked. "The bedroom I'm staying in, that's the only place in this house we've ever fucked, because it wasn't the bedroom he intended to share with you and it's not your daughter's room. That how I knew that I was bushing my boundaries when I wanted to make him love me or some shit. Was stupid. Men know what they want and they make it clear when they don't want something. He wants you and he's do anything for you. So just tell him what he has to do, Julliet and stop complicating it."

"Thanks."

"You're welcome." She smiled.

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~Dolly