Her Keeper

Chapter 57

--Geovanni Parris--

Jules has been sleeping in our daughter's room recently ever since a fight we had a few nights ago.

I was laying in our bed, unable to fall asleep. I didn't know that she was going through so much until it came up when we had our argument.

Opening the medicine chest, I picked up the card of pills she was currently using and threw them in the trash, then I let the entire box follow. The rest of this moth's supply of birth control thrown out.

If she wanted a baby, I was going to allow destiny to decide if we should have one or not.

It was close to three in the morning and I couldn't sleep, so I laid in the bed staring up at the dark ceiling, thinking about the argument Julliet and I had.

I couldn't deny that I hadn't been paying attention to her and her emotions lately. I was caught up in my own emotions. I felt fucked up about Krystal having my child. I was excited about having a new child, but I didn't want one with Krystal and I definitely didn't want one now.

Julliet had been so supportive and calm that I hadn't taken the time to think about how this situation has been affecting her.

I had even been fucking my frustrations out on Julliet for a long time and her admission that she hadn't been orgasming made me feel every bit of guilt I should've when I'd been fucking her to rid myself of my frustrations. I had been selfish, inconsiderate of my wife and her feelings. I couldn't even be upset that she was upset and would rather share a bed with our daughter than with me right now.

The bedroom door slowly opened and I thought it would be Guilia, but it happened to be Julliet.

Without uttering a word to me, she got into the bed and turned away from me.

"Jules?" I called only to be ignored. "Jules?" I called again

"What?" She gritted.

"I'm sorry."

"It's fine." She sighed.

"That's all you've been saying for weeks now. Everything's fine, tell me the truth for once instead of waiting until you upset to tell me, Jules."

"I'm fine. Ok?" She grumbled. "Just leave me the hell alone."

"Coo'." Was all I said as I turned my back toward her just like she's done me. "If you're fine, why did you come to bed then?" I questioned.

"Because Lia asked why I wasn't sleeping with you anymore and I don't want to tell her that I'm upset with you. Now, just leave me the hell alone and let me get some sleep." Sighing heavily, I decided to do as she'd asked and leave her alone.

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"Where are my pills?" Julliet asked from the bathroom.

"In the trash." I shrugged.

"What?" She questioned.

"In the trash." I repeated.

"Why'd you throw my pills out?" She asked.

"You want a baby right?"

"You don't get to decide that I stop using my pills because you're feeling guilty." She yelled. "I'm fine not having kids. I don't think I want anymore with you. I might pop up pregnant by some stranger one day, but other than that I'm cool." She spat.

"What the fuck you want from me, Julliet?"

"Not a fucking thing." She retorted.

"You're mad at me for not giving you the child you want, but when I make it a possibility you're still upset. What the hell am I supposed to do?"

"I never asked for shit!" She yelled.

"You don't want to be a stepmother?" I asked. "Is that it?" I asked again, getting the same result. "You don't want to have to deal with Krystal's pregnancy?" She kept ignoring me as she combed through her straight natural hair. "Jules, I'm talking to you!" I yelled. "You know you could just leave right?" I asked, but she continued to ask as though I didn't exist. Knocking the combo from her hand, I finally got her attention.

"What?" She barked.

"What the hell else do you want from me, man?" I asked in the verge of tears. I felt like I had lost my damn wife and could do not a damn thing about it.

"Nothing." The fucking nonchalant ass answers were getting to me in the worst way.

"Something is obviously wrong, Julliet talk to me!" I yelled.

"Daddy?" A tiny voice caught the attention of Julliet and myself.

"Hey baby." I scooped her up.

"Why are you yelling?" She questioned.

"Daddy's a bit upset." I informed her.

"With my Mommy?"

"Not really, baby. Go play in you room for a bit." I instructed.

"And you won't yell at Mommy anymore?"

"I won't yell at Mommy anymore." I agreed.

"Pwomise?" She looked at me with her big, brown innocent eyes.

"Daddy promise." I assured her, before putting her down.

"Ok." She looked between Julliet and I before heading for her room.

I waited a few seconds to ensure she was really gone before turning back to Julliet.

"Julliet, I'm begging, talk to me." I pleaded.

"About what, Geo?" She asked. "What do we possibly have to talk about and since when have you cared?" She spat.

"I've always cared, Jules."

"We have nothing to talk about, Geovanni." She huffed.

"What's been bothering you?" I asked. "That's what we need to talk about."

"Well, I don't want to talk. I just need to be left alone. Just leave me alone. Focus on Krystal having a healthy pregnancy and birthing a healthy baby, would you?"

"Why'd you skip our therapy session this week?"

"Because I knew that you would bring up my withdrawal and I do not want to talk about it." She gritted.

"So you couldn't call to tell me you were skipping?" I asked. "You just let me show up to session and have Heather look at me stupid."

"Whatever Geo." She mumbled as she resumed combing her hair.

"Wow, Jules. Just...wow." I shook my head at her.

"Whatever." She mumbled again, causing me to turn away from her as I let a few tears fall.

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~Dolly