The Only Reason

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by imagining5soss

by imagining5soss

Pick Your Own Boy - 5SOS-The Only Reason

(Song on the side if you wish)

HIS POV

I sit there, beer bottle in hand and others on the table in front of me. I’m in a never ending cycle. Bitter words are spoken, which in turn, breaks us yet we constantly strive to bring us back to life. I try to end it. Think of a way out, away from you, but it’s like you’re the only reason for anything and everything that is in my life and I can’t drag myself away from all of the crossed wires, no matter how exhausted I am, mentally or physically.

So here I am. Once again. We fought, as always, and I’m sitting here alone looking for a straight line in this tangled web of a mess we have created for ourselves. Wondering if we can undo all of this pain? Or if we can fix this? Or if it is even worth it? Is any of this worth it to bring us back to life only for us to end up back where we started?

As I sit and stare ahead of me, thinking all of this over, I swear I see you shining right in front of me. I rub my eyes and shake my head to rid myself of the mental image but it’s like you don’t fade, you stay standing there, shining brighter than the flame inside your eyes when we argued earlier this evening. That light full of so much hate, so much love and so much passion never seemed to flicker or dim and I can practically feeling you burning under my skin just at the thoughts of you.

I close my eyes in the hopes you will fade from in front of me so that I can think straight. I tilt my head back onto a cushion, relaxing myself and take a deep breath wishing this all away. I try to sleep but fail as expected. Instead I feel the familiar burn of tears behind my eyes and I reluctantly open them as the first one falls down my cheek. I fall apart and struggle to breath. I’m no longer the strong person I always thought I was, always thinking back to you. My heart is never giving up on you, even when my dizzy head is numb, you’ll always be the reason that I’m so madly in love. You’re the reason and you’ll always be the only reason.