Multi-Fandom oneshots

63: Destiel

"Why does it hurt so much"
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Cas wasn't supposed to be in love, he was an Angel. They don't have emotions, they aren't supposed to feel and experience what the humans did. Yet Cas had been in loved with Dean for years and no matter he couldn't stop falling more and more in love with the hunter who he had to save from hell and has since turned his whole world upside down. Cas treasured the time they spent together and always looked forward to when he would see Dean next if ever they were apart.

However as he could feel love and happiness, it also meant that he could feel the pain of heart break after each and everyday that Dean slept with some random stranger or flirted with the next available women that caught his eye.

It hurt Cas more then being tortured and cut time and time again with an angel blade. Cas had never felt pain so gut wrenching until he admitted his feeling for Dean to himself and thought that Dean could never truly become his.

Like many nights as the Angel couldn't sleep, Cas would often cry to himself in the library of the Bunker. However this time, Sam walked in. Sam was shocked to see Cas crying while concerned about his well being. "Cas, are you ok? What's wrong?"

Cas just looked up at Sam, single tears rolled down his face as he said "Why does it hurt so much" Sam was confused. Sitting next to Cas as he rubbed his back in soothing circles, he waited until Cas was ready to explain. As silence drifted over them with the occasional sob from Cas, it was soon broken by Cas saying, "I love him Sam. I love him so much and it just hurts to know that I can never have him and I don't know what to do."

Sam just pulled his friend into a hug. He could tell just how much pain Cas was in and it hurt him to think that there wasn't much he could do except be there and give him advice. "Why do you tell him Cas you never know you might be surprised by his answer." Sam knew that Dean had it bad for Cas, how could you tell by the way he glanced at him. Sam soon left Cas with that thought and soon he was planning exactly how he was going to tell the green eyed man how he truly felt.

The next day, Cas was filled with nerves at the though that he was going to finally confess to Dean. Cas looked everywhere for him in the bunker, only to find him working on his beloved Impala. But as soon as Cas began to speak, Dean instantly shot him down and ignored him. Cas did this multiple time and each time he got more and more frustrated as Dean continued to ignore and or interrupt him.

Finally Cas had had enough and burst out saying, "Dean, will you just listen to me. I've have just spent nearly three hours trying to tell you that I love you and you keep pushing me away. You have no ide how much pain I goth through day in, day out, only to get my hopes up the next day that you may actually like me back and then you go and sleep with who ever is willing." Cas storms out leave Dean saddened and feeling like an idiot.

For the rest of the day Dean paces around the bunker as he hopes that not only is Cas safe and going to return back but that he hasn't completely ruined his chances with him. Dean could believe how much of and idiot he was to actually not realise that Cas loved him back.

It was late into the night when Cas came home. his face was blocky and red while his eyes were puffy and still brimmed with unshed tears. Cas was tired which was quite a first for him. But as soon as he was in the library, Cas felt his face being gripped into two familiar callous hands before their lips were smashed together. The kiss was uncoordinated and messy but each person poured each ounce of love and passion they had into it. Dean soon pulled away, leaving Cas breathless as he whispered "I love you too Cas, I love you so so much."