My Heaven And My Hell

Last Night Together 11/2/2000

I was laid upon the grave by a preacher's hand I cannot lie
And, I forsake the many vows I made to be with you tonight
Could you be the salvation cause I never felt like this before
And, could you lend me your hand because I'm falling back on the floor -Meatloaf

Jenny's POV

I wake slowly as I feel a gentle touch on my cheek. After so many nightly visits and his wife deciding they needed a break from each other I just gave him a key. He comes and goes as he pleases.
"Jenny." He whispers. He's been drinking again and only god knows what else and it worries me. I don't know what to say or do, so I just pull him close. After a moment I ease away from him and help him off with his jacket. Then I kneel and begin to remove his boots. He softly touches my head.
"Jenny you don't have to do that."
"I know, but I want to." I finish taking off his boots and sit them beside the bed. Rising to my feet I kiss him and then pull his shirt over his head and toss it into a rocking chair that sits in the corner of my room. I help him stand so I can take off his jeans.
"Now what are you gonna do with me now that I'm naked?" He's says with a slight slur.
"Put you to bed." giving him a soft shove onto the bed. I crawl in after him and cover us both up. He pulls me into a tight hug and nuzzles my neck.
"I'm mad at you." I give him a dirty look and push him away.
"Oh. why? And you weren't acting pissed you were being so sweet."
"Ah what the male spider says to the female spider once he's caught in her web." I grin. "Now that's your naked it makes it harder for you escape.
"Hmm really?" He sighs.
"You shouldn't drive in the condition your in." I pull off my nightshirt and strattle him.
"Is this the way you correct your man?"
"Yes one of a few, I don't like confrontation." I lean forward so I'm laying on his chest. "I'm not sure if I have the right..." Nikki interrupts me with a kiss
"I guess I can deal and yes you do I'm around your kids. I'm sorry. You're right I wasn't thinking. Anything else?"
"Why are you doing this to yourself?" I run my fingertips down his arm. "I have to tell you I promised myself never again.
"I don't know habit I guess. It's the way I deal with the shit." He strokes my back. "Do you want me to leave you alone Jenny?"
"No, I'd miss you to much now." I love you is on the tip of my tongue, but I'm not ready to say it.
"I'll try to do better." He rolls us so he's on top.
"You ever show up drunk and stoned around my kids, it will be over. You understand." I look him straight in his eyes.
"I understand." He breaks eye contact and nuzzles my neck. "I'll miss you while I'm in Japan." He deliberately changes the subject.
"I'll miss you too and so will the kids." That scares me the most my heart is one thing. The thought of them hurting just kills me.
He kisses me softly and runs a hand down my side to my hip.
"Is the argument over, now can we have makeup sex?" He smirks. "I think I like the way you argue." He snickers I press my lips against his. "Mmm I'll take that as a yes. He reaches and pulls a condom out of the nightstand drawer. I sigh I'm not ready to tell him he doesn't need one of those either. It was to late after the first time. I took a pregnancy test this morning and it was positive. The chicken that I am I keep quiet and kiss him instead. I'll tell him when he comes home I promise myself. I moan as he thrusts entering me in one quick motion. I'm so ready I almost orgasm right then. I love the way it feels our bodies so close it makes me shiver. We make eye contact as he continues to thrust. I watch his green eyes darken as he drives us to our climax. I realize something that scares me as I lay under him shaking from pleasure. I've let him in my heart. Oh God I've given him the power to hurt me.

Author's note
This chapter has little past experience from me. I use to have discussions naked and in bed with my husband because well he was a hot head and it made it easier. 😋