My Heaven And My Hell

Alone Again11/3/2000

Jenny's POV

I wake early leaving Nikki to sleep. Mary is awake and cooing in her crib so I take her with me to the kitchen. I start the coffee and sit down to write with Mary resting on my lap. It's not long before my kids join me in the kitchen I put away my pages and place Mary in her playpen. The quiet is over for awhile as I get them fed, dressed, and ready for school. In the mist of this controlled chaos Nikki comes shambling out and finds a chair. I don't say word I just put coffee in front of him. It's the only form of sympathy he's gonna get. After the kids finish eating they say their good byes to Nikki, Lizzy giving him a big hug. Before grabbing my keys to leave I place a plate of eggs and toast in front of him.
"Try to eat before you leave. If you can." I hug and softly brush my lips against his. "I'm gonna miss you. Um Mrs. Durant will be here soon to watch Mary."
"I'm gonna miss you too." Holding me close before he lets me go. I smile at him one more time before ushering the kids out the door and to the car.

I drop my children off at school and watch till they are safely inside. There is so much on my mind as I left the school behind. I need to check with the realtor about the house I was looking at. What was really eating me up was whether I should have just gotten it over with, just told him about the baby. I was going to tell him. I just didn't know when. I glance at my watch if I hurry I should be able to catch him before his flight. Maybe telling him now would be unfair he wouldn't be able to digest the news before he left. As I head towards the airport I sigh, when is a good time to tell your married lover your pregnant. Once I park I make a dash to catch him before he boards. I come to complete stand still near the boarding area. Donna was there she had her arms around him. I watch her pull his head down for a kiss. Backing away I run back to my car I could feel the tears coming as I turn the key over bringing my old mercury to life. I take off curb checking as I hit the road.

Nikki's POV

Donna shows up last minute telling me she's sorry. She doesn't want me go away without us making up. I let her hug me. She surprises me with a kiss. I just whisper and tell her we'll talk when I get back. What the fuck though she hasn't talked civil to me in two weeks. The only thing that softens me is feeling the baby move inside her. I glance over Donna's shoulder and see Jenny. She looks so hurt, I want to go to her.
"Dude we gotta go." Vince hollows as he heads to the jet. I pull away from my wife and follow my bandmates. Vince drops into the seat next to me.
"Who was the chick?" He punches my shoulder.
"What chick?" I punch him back harder.
"The little dark hair girl you were staring at."
"Jenny is just a friend." I say a little to quickly.
"Ha translation sidechick." He stretches. "Are you trying to compete with me to see who can juggle the most chicks without them knowing?" He laughs. I glare at him. The jet has taken off and has leveled. Here comes Sam our drummer. This is becoming a real cluster fuck. Why couldn't I just have been Jenny's friend. What possessed me to stick my dick into Sam? So off limits should have stayed business. There are to many wrongs in my marriage to count right now. Fuck I need a drink.

Jenny's POV

I pull off the road and the tears finally fall. My heart is breaking. I'm so scared the thought of raising four kids on my own. My stomach feels so sick I open the car door just in time to puke up my breakfast. I rinse out mouth with bottled water. Shutting the door I close my eyes and take a deep breath. I don't have time to feel sorry for myself. I have a dead line to meet with my next book. Got to look for a house need more space. I got to get home to feed Mary. Pulling back into traffic I head home.

Authors note

Sorry had to make a very important correction...I was so tired when I published...