My Heaven And My Hell

My Misery, Her delight And Let It Be 2/6/2005

Nikki's POV

I've been making preparations to leave on tour for days. It can't happen soon enough. I'm ready to escape to the road.

I sigh It's late and Donna is already in bed waiting for me before she turns out the light.

"Ah aren't they cute?" Donna asks showing me a photo of Jenny and Allen holding hands. She pats the bed next to her so I take a seat.

"I suppose." I answer in a neutral tone.

"Ah they are kissing in this one." She giggles like a school girl.

"So." I grunt in response.

"It looks like she's finally found someone to help raise her bastards." She laughs in mock sweetness.

I'm not gonna take her bate. I take a slow breathe and crawl under the covers. She finally turns the page.

"You know I don't like Frankie lump together with her girls. They call them Triple Sixx." She grumbles.

"They are sisters. I think it's cute." I say with a smirk.

"It's not cute it's the number of the beast." She glares.

"Calm down it's just bullshit." I chuckle.

"Maybe to you." She pouts. Maybe Frankie should go to a different preschool.

"No." I answer gruffly. She drops the subject, but I'm sure that this argument will continue later.

She flips to a new page.

"Ah look at all the new babies." She coos. "Look even Eric Clapton & Melia McEnery have a new baby girl named Sophie." She sighs and her eyes light up.

She begins to stroke my thigh and leans over for a kiss. No fucking way, Note to self buy condoms and plan for a vasectomy.

Donna is finally asleep. I lay awake thinking. Allen was right I was pushing Jenny to hard. I've laid off and have been leaving hear alone mostly. I did buy her a late Christmas gift. It was just a simple music box that played Music Of The Night, but I got a beautiful smile for it. I chuckle to myself Allen informed me recently that he wasn't oblivious to my playtime under the table the other night. He did not appreciate me messing with his date. Then informed me that Jenny was a Lady not a groupie who wants to be groped. I think Kovac has got a crush and doesn't want to admit it. I really wanted to inform him in return that the wet panties were telling a different story. But I kept my mouth shut hmm such an unlike thing for me to do. I roll over trying to sleep. His overtures of affection towards Jenny are killing me slowly. It's so hard for me to let this be.

Jenny's POV

Lying awake I think of Nikki he's stopped his very direct advances.
Now I miss his touch. I laugh at myself. I'm so confused and so so horny. I groan I can't sleep so I give up and go downstairs to make tea.

As I sit alone drinking tea I think of Allen he's been getting to fresh lately. Not sleezy like just I don't know. He's just caught me off guard with a serious kiss and I'm not sure what to do. I guess I have to remind him sweetly and swiftly that we are just friends.

I'm going to miss Nikki when he's off on tour. I like his visits with me and the kids. It's so much fun to have a house full. It seems empty with just the five of us here. I laugh I miss the horde. Sixx's Angels want to have a tea party soon I hope we get a chance before Nikki leaves on tour. The girls won't get to see each other much after he goes. I don't care what she says or does to me. I deserve it in a way. I just wish she'd leave the kids out of it. I finish my tea and decide to try to get some sleep.

"You want to sleep with momma tonight boys." I call softly to my mastiffs and head upstairs.