My Heaven And My Hell

The Phantom 1/21/2005

~Think of me, think of me waking
Silent and resigned
Imagine me trying too hard
To put you from my mind

Recall those days, look back on all those times
Think of the things we'll never do
There will never be a day
When I won't think of you~

- "Think of me" Phantom Of The Opera

Jenny's POV

I haven't been out of rehab that long just a couple days. I still feel so raw. All the sharing, counseling, and the time alone. They have me on an antidepressant. I hope it will be temporary. I even missed Christmas. I almost cry. Spending so much time away from my children was difficult, but I know I did the right thing.

Standing in front of my mirror I gaze at my reflection. The burgundy dress I'm wearing goes well with my complexion. I put my makeup on light. I've never been much for the makeup thing. But once I had to go to events. I was encouraged to learn how. Mr. Kovac had decided I needed a night out not just for the taste of freedom. He said that people needed to see me alive and well. I laughed and told him I was a writer not one of his rockstars. He retorted and told me I was also the beloved children's author Gwyneth GoodWitch. How did I allow them to talk me into that pen name. What was wrong with JM Grey? I hear the knock on the door. I make my way downstairs and open door.

"You look beautiful Miss Grey." Allan comments and smiles.

"Thank you." I answer shyly.

"Are you ready?" He asks.

"Yes I am." I smile and grab my purse.

He opens my car door for me before he gets in himself.

"I hope you will like the Phantom Of The Opera." He asks.

"Oh I've always wanted to see the musical live." I give him my sweetest smile.

"I can see why Nikki became so enamored with you." He chuckles. I blush. I didn't know he had paid that mush attention to mine and Nikki's past.

He parks near the theater and after opening my door and helping me out. He offers his arm. I giggle he's such a gentleman and he looks really nice in a suit. We enter the lobby the place is beautiful. The building architecture is worth seeing just on its own. I Whisper my thanks in his ear and kiss his cheek. He told me we would be meeting others here but he wouldn't say who. I look around and my eyes fall on Nikki, Tommy, Vince, and Mick. That wasn't bad it's just their wives or girlfriends were with them. I hadn't really been keeping up with their relationship status. I give Allan a dirty look.

"I didn't think you would come if you knew they would be here. I didn't want you to miss this." He apologizes with a grin.

I put a smile on my face as Allen leads me over to greet them. We are going to be sharing balcony seating. I groan softly. I try to avoid Mrs. Sixx.

Nikki's POV

I can't believe I got talked into this. Looking around I finally see Kovac and his date. I do a double take it's Jenny. They haven't see us yet and I watch Kovav lean so Jenny can whisper something in his ear. She's cutely on her tippy toes. Then she kisses his cheek. I have a moment of jealousy at their closeness

Haha look Nikki's baby mama on Kovac's arm." Tommy snickers and pokes my arm. I glare at him.

"Oh god really." Donna groans. "You know she reminds of Elvira without the boobs even when she's not wearing black." Making the other girls laugh.

I'm not happy about Donna making fun of her behind her back, but if I say something it would be a fight.

"I always thought more like Morticia and she's hot." Mick uncharacteristically pops off. "Hey Nikki do you think she would sign my copy of On The Edge Of A Blade?."

Vince laughs.

I think Mick is right more Morticia." He winks at Donna.

"Im sure she would Mick." I smirk. Thank you brothers. Donna is pouting but she has shut up.

Kovac has noticed us and heads in our direction. I watch Jenny school her face and smile.

"Why Allen?" I ask jokingly.

"I thought your group needed some culture." He quips.

We go to take our seats everyone seats themselves quickly leaving two seat right next to Allen and Jenny. My bandmates are dicks sometimes. It doesn't matter how I handle this Donna is going to be pissed. So I sit between them hoping to avoid a cat fight. The lights dim and the music floats through the air. The actors enter. I look over Jenny is already entranced. I smile this might not be so bad. Jenny has been avoiding me. She's still trying to keep her distance. She glances at me then quickly away as if she was trying not to get caught. She's so much fun to watch she is so involed in the music and sights. At one point during one song her lips are slightly parted. So goddamn sexy I can't help it I slip my hand into hers and run my thumb down her fingers. She looks up at me her eyes wide for one sweet moment. She pulls her hand away placing it in her lap and goes back to watching. I look at Donna she looks bored and unimpressed. She so busy quietly chatting with Vince's girlfriend she didn't even notice what I was up to. I'm glad we are alone up here. Her behavior would be embarrassing. I think she might like it if she paid attention. I go back to watching. I get distracted again when Jenny's leg accidently brushes against mine. I bite my lip so I don't moan. Any other woman I could blow off. I smirk. It doesn't help I know how sweet and hot she is in bed. Well and that my wife is being an icicle.

The musical comes to an end and the performers take their last bow. The lights go on and I glance again at Jenny. Her eyes just sparkle with excitement.

That was amazing." She sighs. She turns and hugs Allan. "Thank you so much for bringing me." The poor man doesn't quite know what to do at first. He finally smiles like school boy with a crush and hugs her back. Can't help it I'm jealous I want those arms around me. We all crowd out to the lobby all of us boys admitting that it was really good. I say goodbye to Allan and Jenny and watch them leave. Is that going to turn into something. My chest hurts at the thought. As my wife avoids taking my hand I groan why do I even try. My mind strays. How do I convince Jenny to let me back into her life and into her bed?

~Floating, falling, sweet intoxication
Touch me, trust me, savor each sensation
Let the dream begin, let your darker side give in~

-"The Music Of The Night" The Phantom Of The Opera