My Heaven And My Hell

I'm A Lady 7/30/2001

Mary laughs as she splashes her older sister, Lizzy splashes back. I see where this going.

"Hey remember we have Elisa in the bath with us." I reprimand.

"Ah Momma." Lizzy complains. "She's no fun."

"She will be soon enough." I say. She lays on my chest I've already bathed her. I hug her gently.

I hear footsteps approaching Nikki announces himself.

"Where's everyone at." He doesn't stop in the bedroom he comes right into the bathroom. He has Frankie in his arms.

"Boundaries Mr. Sixx there are ladies in the bath." I chid him trying to tell him sweetly to get lost.

"Ya Daddy Nikki there Ladies in bath. Shoo." Lizzy giggles.

"I'm so sorry ladies." Nikki says and covers his eyes. He backs away closing the door leaving a crack. I wrap a towel around me and the baby and enter my bedroom.

"You need to wait downstairs Nikki." I goan in frustration. He smirks at me as he lounges on my bed with Frankie. "If you're gonna be a pain you can dress Elisa." I hand the squirming naked baby over to him. I grab my clothes and my kids clothes and march into the bathroom followed by Lizzy and Mary. Mary dragging her towel behind her.

"We're Ladies." Lizzy hollors back at him. Making Nikki laugh.

I come out of the bathroom to see him letting Frankie hold her little sister's hand and telling her to be gentle.

"What are you up to." I ask. I've been trying to have our meetings in public mainly for my own piece of mind. Because when he's here I want to beg him to stay.

"I heard rumors that all my children would be hanging out here, so I came for an unscheduled visitation." He smirks. At least the kids are here that will keep everything PG.

"Ok they are in the back playing with the dogs." I say.

"Those are not dogs. Those are horses." He quips.

"But they are gentle and they keep the photographers away." I giggle.

We gather up the girls and head for the backyard. I'm surprised to see Ryan. Damn Nikki your pushing your luck. I leave him to hang with his brothers. The boys had brought out the playpen earlier we place the babies down to play. Mary eyes the older kids with sad eyes so I let her out to play in the yard. Nikki passes a football back and forth with the boys. For some reason the girls start arguing with Ryan and it looks like it might turn into a tussle.

"Girls girls what have I told you about starting fights." I ask sternly. They both smile sweetly.

"Ladies do not start fights." Storm answers. Lizzy giggles.

"But they can finish them." Lizzy smirks.

Nikki starts laughing and pulls them aside to see if he can settle the dispute. I keep my distance. I know this is hard on Ryan I'm not his favorite person right now. It's getting late so I take the babies in Mary follows behind. I see Ryan bring in the playpen and set it up again I thank him and he runs back outside. I put the baby in her bassinet and Frankie and Mary in the playpen. It's time to make dinner.

Nikki's POV

It's after dinner and I watch as Jenny finishes cleaning. She had finally shooed everyone away so she could finish herself. I sigh It worked I figured she'd let me stay if the kids were here and I really wanted to see her. I want to touch her but I can't. The kids are in the living room a hug would be so sweet, but Ryan might see. So I just watch her wishing I could have my cake and eat it too. She walks towards the living room and trips over a toy. I rush to her rescue catching her. I hold her for moment before she jerks away like I had burned her.

I help her put the kids to bed which took awhile. They were so wired. Lizzy and Storm were in a really sassy mood thank god for Jenny's patience. I know I have to leave to take Ryan and Frankie home. Donna will be home soon and I need to get there before she does. Jenny walks us to the jeep and buckles Frankie in for me as I throw her diaper bag in. I squeeze Jenny's hand gently before I get in. I watch her go back inside. The lights go out as I pull away. There isn't a glowing light left on for me anymore. I miss that light.