My Heaven And My Hell

An eye on the bus 3/4/2005

Nikki POV

Jenny sleeps soundly cuddle against me. I gave in an gave her a Xanax. She was so fucked up about last night. She just couldn't control her anxiety. I just don't know how he knows about our continued affair. We don't even touch unless were on the bus. There's no one riding this bus I don't trust. I glance at Noah and Kimo playing cards. The driver has been with us before. I trust Allen of course he cares for her. He's also the reason we ride together he figures the more people around Jenny the better. It's hard to disagree so no privacy for anyone. Looking towards the front of the bus I notice something I hadn't seen before. I get up to get a closer look.

"Fuck." I growl. It's a camera.

"What the hell." Allen says he rushes to the front. I show him the camera. In a moment of fury I drop it to the floor and crush it under my boot. He has been watching. He's been watching Jenny suffer and he saw us together. We search the rest of the bus and don't find anymore.

We're in Philadelphia it might be a different city but it's the same routine. Except adding the NSA Group and our continued vigilance against the gentleman caller. Jenny made it through her book signing and Allen brought her back to the venue in one piece. He also managed to make me a happy man he has blocked the biddies from backstage. The FBI went through our crew's background and everyone checked out clean, Allen still thinks it someone close. I've been keeping my hands off Jenny. I don't want to push this Motherfucker. I don't want Jenny to get hurt. I know Kimo and Noah are with her. But It still scares me when she's out of my sight. It's time to go on stage I have to keep my mind on the performance.

We're halfway through Shout At Devil when one of the Pyro effects goes off to soon. I'm so close it catches my shirt. Thank god for one of the roadies putting me out. I could still smell singed hair, but hell on with the show I laugh. We play through the rest of the set with out mishap. I get off stage and Allen is about to cancel the tour till this guy is caught.

"Allen it might have been just an accident." I try to convince him. "And if we go home this bastard could follow. We have kids to worry about."

"You could have been seriously injured Sixx." he says.

"But I wasn't." I smirk. He stomps off to check on Jenny.

"Jesus Christ Sixx that was close." Tommy says puts his arm around my shoulder and Walks with me towards our dressing rooms.

"Ya don't do that again." Mick sighs and follows behind. "I about had heart failure."

"We got to find this Motherfucker Sixx." Vince says and stops. "We did pick up two new roadies just before all this shit started."

"Who?" I turn and ask.

I think their names are cicel and Will." Vince answers and shrugs.

"I'll have Allen check them out." I say. "I'm gonna make sure Jenny makes it back to the hotel ok. I'll see you later."

Jenny's POV

I rest against Nikki on the car ride back to hotel. I'm not looking forward to dealing with my roommates. I'm tired I just want to sleep. They've gotten really nasty as of late letting me know what they think of my past behavior. I'm almost asleep on my feet as we make our way to our rooms. As always there's a note waiting for me. I pick it up to read, its not to me.

Mr. Sixx

After much soul searching I've come to the sad conclusion that the only way this can end is for neither of us to have her. There is nothing you can do to stop me.

The Gentleman Caller

PS How did you like the pyro?

I can't handle anymore right now. My brain is to overwhelmed Darkness encroaches I feel myself collapse.