My Heaven And My Hell

Things To Settle

Nikki's POV

I'm on my way back to the house I used to call my home. To a wife that doesn't want me. Thinking about this morning's nakie kisses in the shower that turned into a hell of a lot more. I smile to myself. My smile disappears I worry about my kids and her kids. This is going to hurt so many if it goes wrong. I didn't know my sons and her son had been talking on the phone they are friends now. I know I can't leave Donna right now not while she's pregnant. I'll tell her after the baby is born. Tomorrow is Thanksgiving I'm supposed to pick up my children. How in the hell am I going give my children a happy holiday? I pull into the drive and park. I barely make it out of my jeep when Donna rushes out of the house.
"I'm so sorry Nikki." She cries tears streaming down her face. She wraps her arms around me. I hug her back not quite sure what else to do. I'm so confused. Last night she wouldn't even let me in the house. She wipes her eyes and quickly starts telling me tomorrows plans. I follow slowly behind her into the house trying to make sense of her change of attitude. Once inside she turns and slips a key into my hand. I just stare at it for a moment.

I picked up my kids early and we goofed off till bedtime. Now they are asleep. The house is quiet as I sit at the edge of the bed as my wife crawls in.
"Are you coming to bed?" She asks softly. I feel kinda weird how can she act like nothings wrong. I'd called Jenny not long ago letting her know I wouldn't be back that I was spending time with my kids. She didn't press she allowed me my half truth. I lay down in bed trying to sleep. Donna slides close to me and rests her head on my chest. I sigh. Why hadn't she done this months ago. I won't blame her completely for me straying. But fuck why now? I run my fingertips down her arm. Does she even still love me I wonder.
"I missed you, make love to me Nikki." She whispers. She softly touches her lips to mine. I deepen the kiss and help her strattle me.

Jenny's POV

Nikki called me earlier to tell me he's not coming back tonight. The bed is so empty without him. I just lay awake tears fall down my cheeks. My heart is breaking. Charlie had talked to Decker and Gunner on the phone tonight. I didn't mean to ease drop on their conversation. Apparently Donna had finally allowed their Dad back in her bed. I groan I know I have no right to be jealous, but I am. I haven't felt so much pain since I found out my husband was cheating except this time I'm the other woman. I curl into a ball and continue to cry quietly. The door slowly opens and Lizzy comes crawling into bed. I brush away my tears and pull her close to cuddle.
"Momma where Daddy Nikki?" She pats my cheek.
"He had somewhere else to be tonight." I choke out. It hits me like a splash of freezing water what she had just called him. Oh god what have I done.