My Heaven And My Hell

An Obstinate Patient 3/6/2005 3/7/2005

Nikki's POV

I wake slowly I'm on a hospital cot. I only left long enough last night to shower. Allen took one look at me covered in Jenny's blood and sent me to the hotel. He threaten to have Kimo and Noah drag me if I didn't go. I couldn't have her seeing me like that anyway. Then I came back and refused to budge again.  She is  still asleep as I sit next to her bed. Her wounds were superficial We were informed last night but they want to keep her another night for observation.

    Her eyes slowly open and she gives me a weak smile.

      "Hello Beautiful." I whisper.
She immediately wants to sit up.
"Take it easy Jenny."

      "Where's my doctor?" She asks urgently.

      "Why is something wrong?" I ask worried.

      "No I want to get out of here." She pouts. I laugh.

      "I don't think so little girl. They are keeping you another night" I inform her.

       "But Nikki I have another book signing and you have another show." She exclaims.

      "Yes I have another show. You on other hand are going to stay in this bed another night." I say sternly.

     "I second that." Allen backs me up as he walks through the door.  "Jenny what happened last was horrible. You can't make believe it didn't happen.

     I watch her start to cry. Grabbing her hand I give it a squeeze.

    "She was my friend since I was fifteen. I still can't believe she was capable of last night. I did love her, just not the way she wanted not after..." She pauses.

    "After what?" I ask.

   "It's nothing." She answers and changes the subject. "I still want out of here." She grouches.

    The doctor walks in causally.

    How's my patient this morning?" He greets Jenny.

   "I want out." She glares.

   "No I don't think so Miss Grey." He grins. "I'm afraid your wounds might become infected, so I've prescribed antibiotics through your IV." Then he turns on his heals and leaves us to deal with the aftermath.

    "I'll be so bored." She groans. "Allen get me a phone in here. I got to make some calls."

    "Yes Miss Grey." Allen laughs and leaves to handle her request.

   She sits quietly for moment.

   "Jenny it's only one night and then you can go home." I say gently.

    "I'm not going home Nikki." She says. "If I do I'll become frightened and I would never try to do this again."

    "If that's what you want Jenny. I'm 100% behind you." I say softly and tuck her hair behind her ear.

   "Here you go Miss Grey," he grins at Jenny. A nurse follows him in and plugs in a phone.

  "Where will I meet back up with you after I get out of here?" She asks Allen.

   "Columbus OH Miss Grey." He smiles. 'I'll make the arrangements." He leaves with a flourish in his step making Jenny laugh.

   She gets on the phone and begins making arrangements that give me mixed emotions. Jenny is taking care of her long time friend's burial.

     "Jenny why?" I ask once she's off the phone.

     "Nikki I was the closest thing to family she had, there is no one else to take care of her and this is one of the ways to put this behind me." She answers tears coming to her eyes.

   "If that's want you feel needs to be done." I tell her but I'm still having trouble with the image of Cindy holding a knife to her throat.

   "It's the right thing to do." She weeps. "You need to go if you're going to make it to your next performance."

    She's right I do need to go. I don't want to. I Kiss her softly on the cheek and whisper my goodbye. God forbid if I kiss her on the lips and the NSA group finds out. Her eyes begin to droop the doctor had ordered a sedative.

Jenny's POV

I'm on an airplane to Ohio with Noah sitting beside me. I'd always wanted to visit Boston. But I've never been so glad to leave a city in my life. I glance at Noah he doesn't like planes so he took something to sleep. I rub my neck where the bandage covers the wound any deeper I wouldn't be here. I think about when Cindy and I were 16. She had read my diary and found out about Nikki. I was so afraid she would tell everyone, but she had kept my secret. I remember when she had left town to travel and I had stayed. At eighteen I married a man I had fallen in love with. She had called when she heard he past away and then nothing. I didn't hear or see her again until after Elisa was born. It was good to have company. I'd even thought about being with her, but she hadn't seemed interested and she wasn't much for my children. The thought of us fizzled quickly because of that at least in my mind. I missed intimacy but my children had Nikki as far as I was concerned it was enough. I wasn't in the market for a step parent who might mess that up. I also knew in my heart that I couldn't give something to someone that I'd already given away. Closing my eyes I goan I can't get some of the things she had said out of my head. She had planted seeds of doubt.