My Heaven And My Hell

Just Friends/September ends

Welcome to my nightmare,
Welcome to my breakdown
I hope I didn't scare you- Alice Cooper

Jenny's POV

I had just gotten my children to bed and I was finishing cleaning up after movie night when I hear a knock at the door. I open it to see Nikki he's drunk I haven't seen him for a couple weeks though we had been talking on the phone we had decided to be friends. Someone to talk to when we needed it.
"Can I come in Jenny?" I move aside to let him enter.
"Nikki are you ok? I reach to touch his his cheek. He looks frustrated and wore out.
"I didn't want to fight with her. She is pregnant I don't want to upset her. I always say stupid shit when I'm pissed. I had to get out." He says in a rush.
"Usaully a good move." I pat his shoulder. "Come sit." I lead him to the couch. We sat in silence for a moment. I watch him out of the corner of my eye his head rests against the couch his eyes closed. I had gotten pretty good at sensing social cues, towards the end of my husband's life he had become a little like Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. I never knew who I was gonna get. I learned to watch, wait, and listen. It has left me a little jumpy around men though.
"What would you do when you got in a fight with your husband?" He looks at me curious.
"If it was over something stupid and we were alone. I'd sigh and I would just start to strip and walk towards our bedroom." I giggled. "It worked every time."
"Genius" he chuckles. "And you won every time."
"It didn't really matter who won. I just didn't like to fight." I sigh "And if it was something serious I'd usually just wait patiently for him to shut up and I could talk."
"Oh come on there had to been times he pissed you off." He arches an eyebrow at me.
Mary begins to cry saving me from having to answer. He follows me to my bedroom and sits on my bed while I care for my daughter. I sit and put my baby to my breast to feed her. I turn to him.
"You can sleep..." I trail off he is already passed out.
Once my baby girl is asleep I place her back in her crib and turn back to my bed.
"What am I gonna do with you." I whisper to myself as I approach Nikki. "You are to big to move so I guess you stay." I shrug and pull off his boots and cover him up. I crawl into bed tired and as soon as my head hits the pillow I'm asleep.

Nikki's POV

I wake it takes me a moment before I realize where I'm at. I'm in Jenny's bed. I her hear crying. There are tears rolling down her cheeks her eyes are wide she looks terrified.
"Jenny?" I whisper "Jenny?" She doesn't respond, I don't know what to do so I just pull her close. She moans like she's in pain and she's shaking. I place my hand gently on her cheek and make her look me in my eyes. God she looks so tortured.
"Jenny what's wrong?"
"I can't." She whimpers
"You can't what baby." I stroke her cheek.
"His eyes" she cringes "He's dead Oh god he's dead." She cries quietly. "His eyes, I can't, his eyes, I can't, Oh God." She clings to me I'm almost on top of her holding her I don't know what else to do so I kiss her. She responds slowly at first then her arms circle my neck holding me close. Her kisses become passionate as her hands move to tug desperately at my shirt. I help her pull it off and then help her off with her night shirt. She moans as our bare skin touches. She finds my mouth again. I should stop this she so vulnerable. Oh she feels so good her fingertips sliding down my back. Her hands slip between us unbuttoning my pants and pushing them down around my hips.
"Please." She looks me in the eyes.
"Yes little one." I brush aside her lacy panties, thrusting I bury myself balls deep. I moan I've been wanting to do this since I first saw her again. I can be such an asshole. As I start to move she goes with me as I thrusts. I feel her lips on my chest leaving soft kisses. I thrust faster feeling her body begin to tense as she grinds against me. She pushes against me as she moans sweetly in my ear and whispers my name. She shakes under me. I cum pushing deep my body collapsing on top of her. I just rest there for a moment then I start worrying about my weight. I rise up on my arms to look at her. She's asleep her face so calm and sweet. I gently pull away and roll us so her head is resting on my chest.
"So much for being just friends." I whisper into the dark. Feeling kinda guilty I close my eyes and try to sleep.

Love is not a victory march
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

- Leonard Cohen