My Heaven And My Hell

Freedom For Christmas 12/16/05

Nikki's POV

I can't seem to find what I'm looking for. Its some Polaroid photos I took of the kids when they visited me on tour. She's always moving shit. Maybe she has them in her closet. I open it and feel on the top shelf for the box I put them in. Another box placed haphazard falls on me. I cuss at it and pick it up. The lid has fallen off. Inside is one of Jenny's diaries.

"What the fuck!" It's from the year we first met. There is a VHS tape and a few business letters address to Jenny. Some of the letters are concerning Bliss Greyson and others Gwyneth GoodWitch. I take everything to the family room and put the tape in the combination player. The kids still have things on VHS so I'm in luck. I sit to watch. Crystal sits waiting on tbe bed wearing lingerie. In comes Jenny wearing a business coat with tie and skirt. She wears glasses. Crystal is telling Jenny how she appreciates her many talents and calls her Miss Bliss Greyson. Jenny tells her she has many other talents and gives her a long lingering kiss. Then the clothes start to come off. I'm Glad the kids are still at school. I chuckle as I continue to watch.

"Wow." Is all I got to say.

If I'd seen this under other circumstances. I'd be just amused. Right now I'm Pissed off. This is what made Jenny back off. This is a new low for Donna. Not only blackmailing Jenny she's threatening her lover as well. I can't imagine the embarrassment it would be for Crystal to have her fans find out she's just a cover for another writer. With all this she could fuck them both. I pull out the tape and tuck everything back into the box. I find the bows Donna has for Christmas gifts. I grin as I place one on the box.

"Hey Nikki where you going?" Donna asks and smiles.

"I have a gift for Jenny and Crystal." I smirk. She sees and recognises the box.

"I can explain." She groans.

"I doubt it." I shoot back.

"I just wanted us to have a chance." She pleads.

"By hurting people. You know Crystal has no part in this." I spit out.

"I was desperate. I couldn't think of anyway else." She cries.

"When we decided to try to save our marriage. We needed to have forgiveness. You never could. You should have just divorced me then and saved us all the heartache. I'm going to find my own place. I can't stay here anymore!" By the time I finish speaking. I'm yelling.

"Not at Christmas you can't." She cries harder. I calm down some.

"I'll wait till after Frankie's birthday. Then I'm out!" I growl. I walk around her and walk out the door.

When I make it to Jenny's I'm more relaxed. I sit in my car for a moment anyway. It's still hard to deal with the fact that Jenny is with someone else. When I finally make my way to the door. I do something I've never done before. I ring the doorbell. I don't want to catch them having sex or being romantic. Jenny answers the door with a confused look when she sees it's me.

"Did you loose your key sweetheart?" She says with a smile.

"No I just thought I should ring or knock or something. We're not a thing anymore." I answer softly.

"Come in." She says warmly. "Where I am you are always welcome."

"I got something I think you'll want." I say and hand her the box.

"A little early for gifts isn't it." She grins.

"Not for this one." I smile weakly.

She pulls the lid off the box. Her eyes go wide. Then she has her arms wrapped around me tightly. I hold her close enjoying the sensation.

"Thank you Nikki." She cries tears falling down her cheeks as she looks up at me.

"Why are you crying?" I ask. I kiss her wet cheek.

"These are tears of relief." She smiles then buries her face against my chest. She pulls away wipes her cheeks.

"Sit in your chair I'll get you your coffee." She hurries around the kitchen. I take my seat and watch her. It's her way of settling her emotions. Her tears dry quickly as she brings everything to the table.

"How did you find these?" She asks curiously. She places the box aside and sits.

"They kinda fell on me out of the closet." I laugh sarcastically.

"Oh how careless of her." She smirks.

"Where's Crystal?" I ask.

"Still asleep. Daemon and Daegon kept us awake most the night." She sighs.

"Are they ok?" I ask worried.

"Just a bit of double colic." She quips and takes a drink of her coffee.

"Ah I missed the fun." I wink. She smiles.

"I need to do some shopping if I'm gonna be ready for Christmas. I better go." I say with a sigh. I was enjoying her company and didn't really want go but I'm sure Crystal will be up soon. I don't really want to see them together right now.

"Ok." She says quietly. I stand to leave. She walks me to the door. I'm almost to my car.

"Nikki!" She calls to me. I turn to see her standing in the open door. Her eyes wide and pleading.

"What is it Jenny?" I take the short couple steps back to her. She takes my hands in hers.

"Is it to late? To ask you to stay with me tonight." She whispers.

I pull her to me and kiss her.

"What about Crystal?" I ask Before I kiss her again.

"She is just a friend. We're not being intimate." She answers me in between kisses.

I kiss her one more time before I pull away.

"I'll be here tonight Jenny. I'm all yours." I whisper.