BOOK 1: Love Over Matters [Completed]

Chapter 56: Caught

🌟Jenniah's PoV🌟
🌟On The Way To Xandre's Condo🌟

Nagpahatid ako kay Tito Harry, hindi kasi pumayag sila mama na mag isa ako. Okay na din to para hindi na ako magcommute.

Nasa tapat na kami ng condo building ni Xandre. I look up at the windows on everyfloor since gabi na din iilan nalang ang nakabukas na ilaw doon.

"Tito maghintay nalang po kayo dito mabilis lang po ako." Paalam ko kay Tito Harry at pumasok na sa building.

"Miss, what is the room number of Mr. Alexandre Ramirez?" Tanong ko sa staff na nakaduty sa lobby.

"Wait Miss, I'll just checked it... it's room 89 on the 4th floor." Sagot niya.

"Thank you." Pasalamat ko. Ngumiti naman siya bilang ganti.

I used the elevator to get to the 4th floor, nakasakay palang ako doon kinakabahan na ako, will Xandre forgive me? I hope so.

84...(tug* tug*), four more rooms to passed.

85... (tug* tug* tug* tug*)

86... (tug* tug*), two more to go.

87... (tug* tug*)...

I can't do it, bukas nalang, there's always a tomorrow isn't it? Ano sasabihin ko, hindi pa ako nakapagrehearse.

88... (tug* tug* tug* tug*) relax Jenniah, just take another 5 steps and you're infront of his room. Kaya mo yan.

89...

What will I do? Nandito kaya siya? Baka wala, uwi nalang ako. Damn'it haharapin ko lang naman siya sasabihin na I'm sorry and I missed him so much pero bakit di ko magawa. Bahala na si Thor.

I was about to knock on his door but surpringly, it was left unlocked. Baka nakalimutan niyang isarado kung... lumabas man siya sakali. I didn't make a sound as I enter his apartment.Tahimik ang buong paligid at wala yatang tao sa loob.

I roamed my sight into his dark and cold room expecting to see him sitting, watching, or drinking alcohol, but there was no sign of Xandre here. Well except the room, his bedroom. I glance in to his bedroom. Napatigil ako nang maisip kong baka nandoon siya sa kwarto niya at natutulog. Agad kong tinahak ang daan papunta sa kuwarto niya at dahan dahang lumakad sa ganoong direksiyon.

I can feel my heartbeat. Its like the beats of drum played in a traditional ceremony, fast and loud. Inuunahan pa ako ng pagdadalawang isip na huwag nang tumuloy. Damn! Curious parin ako! What if meron nga siya? Na natutulog lang. I won't waste this opportunity lalo na kung magkakaayos kami. Ano ba naman 'to. Sige na nga tutuloy na.

Nalapitan ko na ang pintuan ng bedroom niya at naiwan itong nakasiwang. I silently hold the knob at pinikit ang mata sa pagkakahawak habang unti-unti itong tinutulak. Sana natutulog siya, or best sana wala siya. Binuksan ko ang mata ko para makita ko ang laman ng room.

Halos Mangatog yung tuhod ko sa nasaksihan ko...

"X-Xandre!" Nauutal na pangbanggit ko sa pangalan niya. I don't know what to say for what I just saw.

Xandre... Xandre is with Zarinah and... and they are kissing passionately?! I dont know what to do at the moment.

Halatang nagulat si Xandre nang makita akong nakatayo. Habang si Zarinah ay nakatingin sa sahig. Nahihiya.

"Jenniah dont get the wrong idea. Its not what you think it is!" Wika ni Xandre.

"Xandre, theres no need to explain. Sapat na yung nakita ko. Anong sabi mo? Not what I think it is? So you mean nagprapractice kayo? Naglalaro? Ano Xandre? I came here to apologize, to say that I missed you and Im sorry that I pushed you away. That I need you. Umaasa akong mapapatawad mo ako that we will be back the way we should be. Im ready to kneel just so you forgive me. But what I have seen now expresses the opposite way I expected it to be." Sagot ko and prevented my voice not to crack.

I prevented my mind not to think it again and again. Nasubukan ko nang mapagdaanan ang mga pinakamalalang problema sa buhay ko. And I consider this one of the worst. So worst that I want to forced myself to believe that it was just a dream. A nightmare that someone should wake me up and say it was just a dream its not real that nothing happened.

"Niah! Please hear me out. Hindi ko ginusto yung nangyari. Swear ikaw ang gusto ko. Please." Pakiusap niya at hinawakan ang kamay ko na nanginginig.

"You already got caught Xandre! Stop this shit lying! Stop being fake and try being real for once in your life. So that hindi ka makasakit ng damdamin ng iba." Pasigaw na tugon ko pulling my hand in his tight gripped.

"Niah, you are the one I truly loved, yung nangyari kanina hindi ko yun ginusto, its Zarinah's fault." Pamimilit niya still holding at my wrist.

"Oh wow, now your blaming her? Then bakit halatang gumaganti ka? Im not dumb Xandre, Im not a puppet to be manipulated." Sacrastic kong tugon.

"Niah please can we just forget what shit happened? I want you back." Nakayukong tugon niya.

"Natatawa nalang ako sa sarili ko, bakit ba kasi ako pumunta dito? I only want to apologize to the person once I loved. You said you'd always be there for me, but I guess that was just another one of your lies. Tanga ko talaga di na ako napala. Sorry to intrude into your very passionate and torrid kiss. You may now continue." Tugon ko at kinalas ang pagkakahawak niya at dumiretso palabas.

I didn't bother to stop from walking as fast as I can palabas ng building. Dumiretso agad ako sa kotse kung saan nandoon si Tito Harry na naghihintay sa akin.

🌟 Park🌟

I was here. Standing on such place. Staring at the whole view of the place I lived on. Ang ganda nito lalo na at gabi, luminous lights from every building made the view more valuable.

Yes, I'm in the park where Aaron painted me, hindi parin tumitigil ang pagtulo ng luha ko mula sa aking mata.