There's more to life (Adopted by Brendon Urie) | #2

#43

Song of the Chapter: Car Radio by Twenty One Pilots

Anna's POV

James picks my head up and makes me face him but I couldn't look him in the eyes.
"A, look at me."
I look down and he picks my head up again so this time I was looking him right in the eyes.
"I love you ok? No matter what anyone says, nothing will change that." He wipes my tears away with his thumb and holds me close, he rubs my back and plays with my hair.
"Want to talk about it?"
I shake my head and close my eyes.

———

When I wake up I was still wrapped in James' arms and I had my weighted blanket around me.
"Morning babe."
I nod my head and snuggle close to him, I could just feel that today wasn't going to be my day.

"Anna?" I hear footsteps approaching my door and dad opens it.
"Oh. Hi James. When did you get here? Anna are you alright?"
"Hello Brendon."
"Everything ok?" Dad asks me sitting next to me. I nod my head.
"Are you sure?" Dad looks at James who looks at me, I just snuggle close to James.
"Are you going to tell him?" He whispers into my head which I shake.
"Do you want me to tell him?" I shrug.

"Gerard messaged me at about 3 am telling me to come over and that's all I know, she hasn't said anything."
"Anna? What happened?" Dad asks me and I shake my head.
"Do you want me to leave so you can talk to your dad in private?" I shake my head and grip onto James' shirt as if to say 'don't leave me'.
"What's the time for Gerard?" I hear dad mutter and look at his phone.
"A, I'm going to call Gerard if you aren't going to talk." Dad says placing a hand on my shoulder. He hugs me awkwardly because I was still holding onto James and whispers,
"Please don't fall back down that hole again A."

Brendon's POV

I was very confused when I walked into Anna's room to find James. I became worried when he said she wasn't talking about whatever happened but my only hope was to talk to Gerard and hope he knew what happened. I hope he doesn't mind a phone call at 5 am.

"Brendon?"
"Hi. Gerard. Sorry."
"What's up?"
"What happened last night? Anna is holding onto James for dear life and isn't speaking. He said you told him to come over?"
"I don't really know what happened. All I know is she called me mid show, panicking and I think she wanted to relapse. She was going on about how she was sorry and she was upsetting everyone."
"Oh, well, whatever happened, she's not talking."
"Shit. Again?"
"I don't know if it's like last time or anything but I'm worried."
"Of course, when I got off the phone with her she said she was ok and she felt better. I was a bit iffy so I got James, Sorry hope you don't mind."
"No it's all good, thank you for doing that actually. Ok. Sorry for waking you, I'll let you go back to sleep and I'll talk to ya later."
"Ok bye Brendon."
"Bye thank you again."

Anna's POV

From Gerard: A, you ok?
To Gerard: Yep
From Gerard: you sure? Brendon said you aren't talking
From Gerard: you said you were ok when we hung up, you don't have to lie if it's not true.

I don't respond I just turn my phone off and move it away from me.
"Talk to me, what's up?" I shake my head and lean against James. Dad comes in with some coffee, toast and bottle of water.
"I know you probably don't want to but please try and eat something." He says worried and leaves after placing it on my bedside table.

James tries to get me to eat but couldn't.
"Please baby, it hurts me to see you like this, you're hurting yourself and you know that. You're going to end up killing yourself and I need you, please. You helped me now let me help you." He rubs my back in comfort. I manage to eat about a quarter of the toast before feeling like throwing up.
"Thank you A. I'm proud of you."
I just shake my head and look at the floor. He shouldn't be proud of me, I'm a fucking mess. I can't even eat a slice of toast, I'm pathetic. He shouldn't be dealing with me. He would be so much happier with anyone else. He picks my head up and interrupts my thoughts.
"I'm so proud of you Anna and I love you so much. You mean the world to me and I don't know where I'd be without you. Do you want to go downstairs?"
I did not want to.
"Come on, just to get you out of here for a bit, you can stay in your pyjamas if you want." He smiles as he pulls me up off my bed. He brings my water bottle and I carry my blanket downstairs to the couch where I sit in a very similar position. Mum says good morning to both of us and I nod and give a weak smile. She asks us if we want anything.
"No thanks Sarah." James says as he places my water bottle down. Dad comes out from around the corner and sits next to me.