There's more to life (Adopted by Brendon Urie) | #2

#62

Song of the Chapter: Drown by Tyler Joseph

Anna's POV

James lays with me, stroking my cheek. It was really relaxing and calming. So calming in fact, that I fall asleep.

I wake up a few hours later, at 4 am, still wrapped in James' arms. He was looked adorable asleep but as much as I wanted to stare at my boyfriend who was asleep, it was a little weird and I had many thoughts I wanted to ignore swirling in my head. I quietly leave the room and walk down to the studio. I shut the door of the sound proof room and scream into a pillow. I was sick and tired of this voice. After a minute or two, I stop screaming and I turn on dads keyboard.

Here I come, come to you in the very clothes
That I killed, killed you in and now I know I'm alone
I walk to you, rain falls from you
Can you wash me, can you drown me?

I wanna be a lot of things, so much pent up inside of me
I wanna be stronger, too long I've sat here undecidedly
Planning strategy, half of me know it's all just a fallacy
Failing miserably, drastically and then I crash dramatically
Into a wall I've hit a hundred times before
And yet I still ignore the dark red blood stains on the floor
And I'm back in front of you, Lord, with the blood on the floor

Is the blood mine or yours? Don't wanna do this anymore

Back and forth between me and me and who you call me to be
You see a man free who thinks he has to buy a key
To a door but he can't 'cause he's poor and he can't
Fall down anymore 'cause he's already on the floor
And his heart is broken and all and this is his scar
But it's warm from crying 'cause he will try nine times
To realize nine crimes but he has more than nine lives
So he picks himself up and keeps climbing for the prize again

Here I come again to you
Just to show the blood soaked through
Through my bones and all I own
Is there a way for me to grow?
I walk to you, rain falls from you
Can you wash me, can you drown me, please?

Every time I feel selfish ambition is taking my vision
My crime is my sentence, repentance is taking commission
It's taking a toll on my soul, I'm screaming submission and
I don't know if I am dying or living

'Cause I will save a face for name's sake
Abuse grace, take a aim to obtain a new name in a newer place
But my name is lame, I can't walk and I ain't the same
And my name became a new destiny to the grave and

They say the ocean's blue but it's black right now
In the dark, on the sand, looking out at my crowd
Depression and drowning singing now the full parts
A lightning reveals where the ocean stops and the sky starts
I've been told by the sky that the ocean I shall win
But it's hard for me to see where ocean stops, and where sky begins
A random strike of light reminds me of what is true
But right now the ocean is black and black the sky is too

I feels arms wrap around me and I look up to see James.
"Sorry did I wake you?"
"No, I woke up to use the bathroom and when I notice you weren't there, I came looking for you and I saw the door shut so I assumed you were in here. Everything ok?"
"Yeah I just woke up and needed a distraction so I came down here."
"Nightmare?"
"No, I just woke up." He kisses my cheek, making me smile.
He sits on the couch and pulls me close.
"I love you." He smiles.
"I love you too."

What are you doing
Don't get close
He'll just hurt you like everyone else
He doesn't really love you
Yes he does
Anna you know it's all fake who would like you?
Brendon is tired of you
Sarah is sick of you running away
Stop