Drive-Thru

This is about Karl and Axel.

This is not a promotion, but if you're interested in LGBTQ+ stories, try reading Someday I'll Find My Way Home!

Anyway, let's proceed.

I cannot express how I love Karl and Axel. I think I love them more than Macky and Ethan (from Moonlight Punch Romance).

At first, I wrote Karl and Axel as an answer to Macky and Ethan. The latter were my definition of meant-to-be, and was heavily inspired by Solangelo (Will Solace and Nico di Angelo, from the Percy Jackson series). Ethan was silent and gothy, and Macky was the, figuratively, the sun that brings warmth to him.

Here lies the problem with those two--their story was already finished!

Hindi ko talaga magawang sundan 'yung Moonlight Punch Romance. As in. Hindi ko kayang sundan kasi natatakot ako na mapapangit ko 'yung itorya nila. 'Yung sinulat ko, gusto ko doon na matapos 'yung kwento nila (sa ngayon). I really want their story to end up hanging because I didn't want them to break up in the future (sorry! Let's be honest, it could be one of the possibilities if I wrote their story further).

And I wanted them to stay young and carefree. It's young love, for goodness' sake. 'Yung feeling na unang beses kang ma-inlove? Gusto ko 'yun manatili do'n sa dalawa.

But, Karl and Axel were the antithesis of Macky and Ethan. Sure, they're somewhat similar to one another, but a crucial part on their story was that they were best friends first and foremost! Nothing more, nothing less. 

So, do'n na papasok 'yung elements na gusto kong i-highlight sa story nila. Finding out your sexuality. Being friendzoned, jusko! Losing a friend. Adult life. College life. And many more.

And with these possibilities... I felt the need to give them a story. 

Kaya nitong quarantine, hindi talaga mawala sa isip ko 'yung kwento nila. 2018 ko sila unang sinulat, and I really loved how The One Where They Watched All Night turned out. They were friends, but I felt the hesitation. I felt their scared feelings of not ruining their friendship for that mistake. And at the end of that story, I gave them a happy ending. Kasi, why not? At that moment, I wanted to believe that taking the leap would result in a greater payoff. 

And then I wrote more stories about them (na nandito rin sa Drive-Thru, sorry, hindi talaga sila mawala sa isipan ko).

If Macky and Ethan were total opposites, Karl and Axel shared a lot of similarities. They're both selective on who to be friends with. They don't show their true side unless they're really comfortable to that person. They're both talkative and supportive to their friends and to one another. And, they're both confused and scared on how people think about them.

Kaya sobra akong natutuwa tuwing sinusulat ko silang dalawa sa Someday, I'll Find My Way Home. In just two weeks, I wrote 50,000 words in their novel, and I haven't finished it yet! Sobrang dami ko pang plano sa kanila. And I'm working on an ending that would satisfy their souls. Hindi sila tatahimik sa isipan ko hangga't hindi ko sila binibigyan ng hustisya.

Sa sobrang pagmamahal ko sa kanila, sila 'yung una at huli kong iniisip paggising at pagtulog (maliban na lang sa jowa ko, love you!). Palagi kong iniisip paano sila magre-react sa mga bagay sa paligid nila. Paano sila magsalita. Anong gagawin nila kapag nangyari ito, o ganyan. Mga gano'n. 

Pero, to be completely honest, hindi naapektuhan ng pag-angat ng Thai BL series itong novel. Talagang nasaktuhan lang ng panahon. And Karl and Axel were in my head since... 2018?

This is a point in my life where I just wanted to enjoy myself making art that I love. Gusto ko 'yung sinusulat ko. Kahit na laitin mo 'yan sa pagmumukha ko, iiyakan ko lang 'yan, pero ipapagpatuloy ko pa rin. Kasi tuwing sinusulat ko sila, pakiramdam ko, pinapanood ko 'yung buhay nila na parang nasa sine. Ayaw ko silang tumahimik. Gusto ko lang silang mabuhay at maging masaya (kahit papaano).

Sorry, I blabbered about them. Hindi ko kasi masundan 'yung sinusulat ko pagkatapos kong manood ng series (kasi kilig na kilig pa rin ako do'n).

So, if you have time this quarantine (like I do), try reading it! It's on my profile. I'm updating it everyday!